3 Things Most People Are Terrified of That I'm Actually Looking Forward to
You can call me weird, it’s okay
1. Old Age
No, I don’t want to be an old lady right now. I want to enjoy my youth. I want to enjoy every season and every rite of passage. I don’t want to skip important steps. I want to be in the moment at every stage because I understand life works in cycles, seasons, and ages.
I don’t fear old age because it’s inevitable.
I know it’s coming, so I prepare for its arrival by enjoying every bit of my youth, so when it arrives, I can say I lived and loved every moment. Part of the preparation involves fulfilling life purposes and missions, so when old age arrives, you know you’ve done what you said you were going to do.
When time passes and my skin grows weak, I’ll adore myself. When the gray hairs come in, I will bask in the glory of my old age. I’ll love myself at every age and every stage.
Growing old to me means my journey is coming to an end. A long, tiring journey is coming close to an end. The feeling I get when I think about that isn’t fear, it’s relief.
Many people don’t live to see their old age. They die before their time. Aging is a blessing in my opinion. It’s something to be celebrated.
I want to age easily. Healthy aging is not about a lack of wrinkles or gray hair; it’s about acknowledging and accepting each stage of life as part of the journey. It’s about living life to the fullest and enjoying every stage of life along with whatever comes with it.
Wrinkles and gray hair come with old age.
I’ll brush through my frail hair slowly and gently, adoring each strand as a sign of wisdom. I’ll look at my wrinkly skin and celebrate the years my body has journeyed through. And I’ll say what a beauty! I’ll still feel the same love and respect I feel now at 31 when I’m 71 because every age is beautiful.
I’ll embrace the wrinkles and the crinkles understanding that beauty is not the state of the body, but the state of the spirit.
Spirit is what drives you. The body is like a used airline pillow. Most people don’t take it on their next journey. The body, like the pillow, gets left behind after the flight. The body is destroyed no matter what, but what keeps on living long after the body has decayed is the spirit.
Spirit drives the soul. It drives the soul to do good or bad.
Healthy aging is not about a lack of wrinkles or gray hair; it’s about acknowledging and accepting each stage of life as part of the journey. It’s about living life to the fullest and enjoying every stage of life along with whatever comes with it.
I can see myself as old and wrinkly yet present and aware. Wise as an owl spewing wisdom in every conversation. I see myself surrounded by little kings and queens, bringing them up knowing to always preserve the spirit given to them. I can see myself surrounded by sons and daughters seeking my wisdom and insights. They’ll come to me whenever they’re struggling with something and I’ll tell them not to worry because everything they’re experiencing is part of their soul’s plan.
I don’t just want to be a wise old woman for my family; I want to be a wise old lady for everybody that crosses my path. I’m looking forward to all of it.
The aches and pains? Getting older does not automatically mean weak knees and a bad waist. Old age doesn’t equal poor health. It doesn’t mean I’ll be confined to a walking stick. But if I have to use a walking stick, it’ll definitely be in style!
Loneliness? Yeah. Old age does not always equal loneliness either. Most people fear that they’ll be alone when they grow old. But who says it’s always so? I’ve been alone most of my youth, so if that’s the case, well, it wouldn’t be my first rodeo. And when you have the spirit of God living in you, you’re never really alone.
Also, I’ll be surrounded by little people all the time, telling them parables and spirit tales. But tomorrow will worry about itself.
So you see, I see no reason to fear old age because I'm preparing for it.
I’m manifesting radiance in my old age by taking good care of my skin now. I’m manifesting good health by taking care of my body and mind now. I’m manifesting wisdom by creating space for it right now.
I don’t fear aging because it’s a rite of passage. We will all grow old someday and I’m looking forward to it because it means I’ll be getting closer to leaving this earth.
2. Death
No, I don’t want to die right now. I’m not dying until I’ve lived a full and complete life. It won’t be until I’m old and gray and I’m looking forward to it.
I don’t fear what happens after death.
Many people fear death because they see it as an annihilation of their existence. They think it’s the end but what if death is the beginning? What if life on earth is just a journey? We’d never know what’s on the other side until we get there.
Death is only to be feared if one’s life is lived without meaning.
My life has so much meaning. I had a spiritual awakening for crying out loud. And then the darkest dark night of the soul.
I’ve sorted through my shadows and brought them all into the light. I’ve healed most of the hurt and made peace with my past.
I live a righteous lifestyle and I do good deeds whenever I can. I respect my elders and lie less often (ahem). I try.
I know I’m a lightworker and I know the things I agreed to do before coming here on earth and I’m doing them now.
I live a meaningful life, so if death arrives, there’s nothing to fear but fear itself. All my questions will be answered the moment I cross over. Questions that have kept me up many a night.
When my time is up, I’ll go home and rest in the bosom of my heavenly father. I’ll go and continue my work as a true spirit guide in spirit form.
But I have to be honest.
I’m terrified of the death of my loved ones. My own death doesn’t send chills down my spine but the death of those I love paralyzes me. That’s because their death wouldn’t bring me the answers I need and will only leave me with more questions.
I also fear that I’ll live far too long with these questions still on my mind. I fear that I’ll be one of those old folks who pray for death to just come and take them but it passes them by and takes younger folks. I fear that my work on earth will be longer than I can bear.
I crave spirit.
When my time is up, I’ll go home and rest in the bosom of my heavenly father. I’ll go and continue my work as a true spirit guide in spirit form.
Death is the only thing that can usher me fully into the spirit world where my true home is. In death, I will finally know for sure what exactly happens in the afterlife.
3. Spirit World
I can’t wait to see the spirit world. I can’t wait to meet God. I want to meet all the angels. I want to meet my guardian angel and thank him or her for a job well done.
It must be really tough guarding a rebel!
I want to see my dad again. I’ll ask him why I still haven’t dreamt of him. It’s almost two years since he passed. I want to know why he appears to everyone in dreams but me.
I want to see a ghost so I can maybe help him or her to get home and find some rest.
I can’t wait to see how souls look like. I want to find out if souls have legs. I really need to find that out for very personal reasons.
I want to see to view of the earth from the cosmos. I want to see how it looks like from there.
I can’t wait.
Right now, nothing makes sense here in the physical realm, but I know everything will make sense in the spirit realm. There, I’ll have all the answers I've been searching for.
I want to return to the spirit world, go over the contracts I signed and say that I did everything I said I was going to do.
I want to finally achieve a divine space of being where I won’t need to return to earth anymore. I’m never coming back and that’s why I work so hard now.
Never say never?
Maybe. Maybe I’ll beg to come back! Who knows?
But I just want to stay in heaven doing my job as a spirit guide in spirit form, whispering answers into people’s ears, comforting those who are hurting, and leaving angel numbers for those who need guidance.
I can’t wait to go home where I belong; where I’ll fit in, but until then, this home will do. Until then, I’ll enjoy every stage, every season, and every cycle.
While I wait, I’ll live my life to the fullest.
