Writing Turned Me Into A Human
A Human seeking another human
“Before, I wanted to say: “I found love!” But now, I want to say: “I found a person. And she belongs to me and I belong to her.” ― C. JoyBell C.
Are we judging and measuring each other’s worth and success based on the number of followers everyone has?
It’s a robotic/bot world, everyone is looking for more likes, comments, views and more money with every single click on their posts on various social media platforms. Trying to crack the code of various algorithms to find how to gain maximum followers and what not. But does it really matter in our life?
At least not to me.
I am very introverted and sensitive even for the things that you might think are useless. Once one random guy said nasty things on one of my twitter posts and I literally didn’t login to twitter for the next 3 months and that comment haunted me like a shadow and sometimes still does. Now you can understand my level of sensitiveness.
I became very depressed. Not so dramatic, but I had sinking feelings. I was kind of lost.
Writing on Medium and confessing my emotional state, vulnerabilities wasn’t easy and it’s the hardest thing in my life I have ever done. But as people say — the most brave thing you can do is just do that thing.
“Vulnerability is not winning or losing; it’s having the courage to show up and be seen when we have no control over the outcome. Vulnerability is not weakness; it’s our greatest measure of courage.” — Brene Brown
I am not a writer.
I have been writing my entire life, but I don’t call myself a writer. I remember when I was a kid and in my teen years- I used to write diary to my future self — It was not a thing that time and most of my family thought I am wired and a little odd one out.
Anyway, back to my writing journey — I started writing on medium this year January 2021 just after to help myself from a painful breakup- I was shattered, heart-broke.
But I needed something to get out of bed and get on with my day. I focused on my mental health and started writing to release my emotional state and how it’s changing my life everyday.
What is our purpose in life?
Everyday I ask myself this question.
And my disappointing answer is “To be happy.”
That’s all? I was expecting something more profound. I couldn’t comprehend how truly profound her simple statement was.
Writing this post is my way to say that there is always something good waiting for you even if you don’t know where your path is going to lead you.
Writing makes me happy.
Being vulnerable and true to your emotions are not a bad thing. This is what separates us from other species.
Go. Make something. Be happy.
Last weekend I re watched “Brene Brown’’ “Dare to Lead” on Netflix and now I can understand what it means to be vulnerable and now when I look at the woman in the mirror I appreciate her beauty, her virage and her confidence and make her believe that she can do anything she sets mind to. And I am sure you too.
Expressive writing is expansively defined as writing that helps us make sense of our thoughts and emotions.
Let’s not merely write our way out; let’s write our way into the new.
After all, we are all changed. And after we write for ourselves, perhaps we might share our writing selectively to reconnect in a deeper authentic way with all the people around us and as well as with ourselves.
Finding ways to release emotions.
I have been a hell lot of vulnerable in some of my posts especially around dating and my experience as a woman. I have never imagined in my wildest dream that writing is actually making me human again and I am able to connect with my deep self more authentically and without being self-critical.
I am a person who procrastinates whenever anything goes wrong and over analyzes everything.
As I have started reflecting back on this year I realized — I have developed empathy, resilience and connected with my emotional state way better than before. It also helped me to connect with other people around better.
After all, writing’s power to heal lies not in pen and paper, but in the mind of the writer.
Here’s the good news — we don’t have to be professional writers to use writing to help us comprehend the contours of our experience, heal, and ultimately flourish, restore, repair, renew. We merely have to pick up our pen and begin. Connect and share our life stories.
Even if writing is not your jam, finding something where you can unapologetically be yourself. Either it’s going to a gym or a walk or any creative outlet like painting, singing, dancing. Just try.
It’s about making something new. That’s what make us happy.
That is what making me happy right now as I type. I’m finally writing again.
Let’s be human again.
Be Bold
Be Courageous
Be Your Best
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