Mortgage One’s Soul
Mortgage One’s Soul
Fiction from the future
Merticaru Dorin Nicolae
Welcome to the road “Around the Worlds” (the old name of the story) that will outline “Mortgage One’s Soul”!
Please understand that this is not some kind of simple trip… It is a pure experience! About people, about humanity, about souls, about worlds, about the universe, about imaginable and unimaginable…
Is it just a book or is it something else?!? You decide…
It is the path that the life of the main characters can take in the material universe (He, Mircea Dan and/or She, Monique Touran… Or her twin sister, Lily)…
Together with or apart from, and with their souls, He, VedaIryu and/or She/Them, Atma (The Essence) or branches of this one soul, Xantia or Danah…
Everything depends on your choices (of course also on the options that I/We have at our disposal)…
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The Projected Reality
The waves of perception made him indifferent to everything that was happening… Strong flashes of light left clear traces that seemed to overwrite each other… At one point he was amused at the idea that it was some kind of carousel… Some kind of chains of lights that gave the impression of a merry-go-round… Like many of his childhood memories…
Of course, his flows were not too peaceful… He was concentrating but everything was indifferent to his desires… Like a dream following its course of events… Even enjoying itself…
Yes, human perceptions, he concludes ironically… Or materials?!? Does it matter?!? he tried to distance himself from the growing confusion. Focus on what you are now, as a landmark in the time and dimension that interests you! an idea comes from somewhere. Let what would be the past, let what would be the future!
Now! Yes now! An exercise in projected reality…
But he only sensed the requests of those in the waves of perceptions… Many requests… Hard to identify… The Council was predominant…
What there was to think about the Council was thought. Even in the direct manifestation of interaction, he had announced to those present that…
This was! He had focused on connecting with the Essence! He needed the stabilization of his flows and he wanted to identify the major destabilizing elements that seemed to manifest themselves, to close their contradictions.
He concentrates and eliminates one by one all the uncertain emissions, unrelated to what would be the manifestation in the Essence… Dan gives up with difficulty disturbing him… Atma… Corasdo… Enough! he found himself concluding almost in a kind of rage status.
And everything disappeared in a kind of beeping that went from a serious tonality to a sharp, short, deaf scream.
Suddenly he felt peace. Yes, he had succeeded. Now it was just him with memories strictly related to him. It’s time to search.
- We are here, he perceived from the whole Essence. Now you are too… You know why you came, you don’t know what you will leave with.
- That’s because I didn’t come for anything in particular. I simply have a kind of general perception of fatigue… Yes, I’m tired of always looking for solutions… To understand what only and only others want… I want peace! I want to have time to clarify my perceptions. My perceptions…
- But this is why you exist, this is why you manifest here and now, Essence interrupted him, or some kind of voice of reason…
He didn’t try to delineate what it was about, to figure out what the essence of the message would be. You feel that it is good to conform to this logical line of perception…
- You are a small part of the whole, of me, of the Essence. Just as I am a small part of another Essence… An echo… With a well-defined purpose, with a group of contradictions assigned to you to close them… Possibly to develop them…
- That’s enough! emitted irritated. I know the truth, I know the continuity solutions. But I’m tired. I feel a clear desire to act only and only for myself. I need the quiet of meditation… I no longer want to deal with the restlessness of logic… Of the steps imposed by my needs to act on elements external to me…
- We have discussed this before, Essence intervened. Your persistence in addressing defining elements does not solve problems. You always forget…
- Yes, yes, yes!!! he interjected increasingly irritated… Feeling the need to control the dialogue… The monologue or what it was that he perceived… To not get out of the vibration of the flow. I am in these manifestations to close the contradictions of those who interact directly with me, at my level of manifestation… Obviously! But I’m tired…
- Why?!? Try to answer! The first to emerge is the most obvious, the most important…
- I no longer want to participate in this chain of compromises, of other people’s debts, constantly developing… Chains link after chains link, manifestation after manifestation… Then to redo the course of manifestations starting from the first chain link that gives way, being forced to choose only one part of the chain that ended its manifestation as a whole… Or be forced to not choose and take care of both ends of the broken chain… Always and always dependent on only a “weak” chain link with her decisions and actions…
- But there is a choice, I sense from somewhere…
- What choice can this be?!? emitted surprise at the nonsense of that perception. Choosing what others have decided?!? A single component of this manifestation group, ohhh, chain, how did we perceive and delimit it in this analysis simulation?!?
- And, if you are still discouraged by these manifestations, do you want to become such a chain link, the kind of individual who gives up?!?
- No, never! I can say I hate this… Alas, I have reached the manifestation of the ego… Clear residences… Which do not belong to me but which I acquire… As a mission or as a manifestation?!?
- Then?!? the Essence asks ironically. Choose! came a new emission in the silence attracted by the surprise of the previous conclusion.
- I have already chosen… I have withdrawn my manifestations only into myself and into the only container, into Mircea Dan… To focus my manifestations on as few directions as possible… I have no other manifestations to focus on in this time and this dimension.
- Isn’t this a manifestation of ego?!? You and only you, possibly with Dan?!? Either you know that the ego represents a clear delimitation from the global action, possibly from the particularized action in which you manifest yourself as a recipient, as Dan. Or to the other manifestations of the Essence?!?
- Well, how many times do I have to emphasize that I did everything, that I was tired and… And his logical course stopped without the possibility of continuity.
- See, you can’t continue the idea! It blatantly violates something defining… You can’t limit yourself to a single manifestation.
- The ego, perceived the rather disturbing conclusion.
- There would have been no need for manifestation through a container, came a new conclusion, like a reproach. All your withdrawal from interactions with other people, and groups, have done nothing but amplify the energetic accumulations of manifestation. Look, let’s move on to distinct elements! Earlier you perceived the Council’s, Atma’s, and Corasdo’s lines as a kind of emergency. Not forgetting the primacy of Dan.
- The Council is well defined in terms of structure and manifestation, he intervened irritated to quickly eliminate the points of analysis that seemed useless to him. Corasdo, same…
- But what do we do with Atma?!?
- I’m not going to pay attention to just any applicant. Regardless of the advantages that may arise from it. I have no part of manifestation to have advantages, I have no contradictions…
- Outside of the ego, a new thought interrupted him, as annoying as it was discouraging. Don’t you understand that regardless of the need for support in closing contradictions, the entities that will interact with you are doing it for their advantage?!? Something like a bank that lends but requests a mortgage from which to ensure its profit and not the guarantee that it will recover the loan?!?
- That’s kind of the basis of manifestation in the entity, like the container. Everyone must have a guarantee, a mortgage from those around them. As those around will have their mortgage. Otherwise, the manifestation cannot be realized…
- So, you interject ironically the same course of logic, the same thought, you cannot act without entering the rules of the game you are participating in?!? Your mere presence in it constitutes your agreement to comply with the rules. The entities you interact with need a mortgage on you. Or, as the containers describe to us, it is necessary to manifest the mortgage of one’s soul. It doesn’t matter that you don’t need guarantees. Possibly, you offer the maximum guarantee imaginable. Profit is thus assured and not a guarantee of events.
- To understand that I am obliged to accept the mortgage of one’s soul… Mine or someone else’s?!? I came here without obligations…
- That is the essence of the power you have. Power is given to be shared and not to be manifested. In your case, there is also the nuance of relinquishing the ego, the illusory independence attracted by the power held. A shade that you don’t accept…
- Like the essence of essences, of Oneness, of Presence, that would be the bottom line, wouldn’t it?!? Even Presence is the first to mortgage the manifestation of its branches. His ideas, his contradictions, or how you want to consider them. It was mortgaged to him… That’s why the best description would be mortgaging someone’s soul… Whose doesn’t matter anymore… The plus value is important…
- This is the primary manifestation of the global hologram…
- Yeah, mortgage one’s soul… Why am I boring myself thinking about all this?!? Both the one who asks for a mortgage and the one who accepts the mortgage will be permanently linked to each other. Regardless of what may be interpreted as coming, throughout the pact and often long after.
- Seek to return to something concrete, to interactions of the first perception, to your container Dan, to Council, Atma, and Corasdo! These are your first requirements.
- Yes… Clear… In the case of the Council, we are dealing with a massive energy current that is destabilizing the flow… The course on which the general actions have been focused for so long from that of the receivers… It is hard to sense what will come next and we are not supported either in understanding what it is all about…
- And if you knew what was coming, would you close a contradiction? feel the opposition of his thoughts. Wouldn’t you live it and just comply?!? Wouldn’t the value of discovering your true existence close the contradictions?!?
- I know all these things. The request, the desire for clarification, is born strictly from a kind of impossibility to intuit what follows and…
- That’s right, for fear of making a mistake. You felt the answer and the lack of meaning to continue… The ego…
- But that’s what the other board members feel too and… That’s right… I realized… We’ve worked so hard, we’ve been so heavily involved and now we’re afraid of the meaning of our involvement… Or the lack of meaning…
- And don’t forget that you are the mortgage of all entities in this time and this dimension. Without them, you don’t have the faintest chance of…
- Hey, crazy thoughts, I know what I am and what I must do! he said angrily. Ready! Only containers have this weakness, crazy minds like drunken monkeys, as they lament. Concentration! he requests, for the umpteenth time. In the case of the council, I made myself clear. We are too dependent on the decisions of other entities to struggle to find meaning and purpose. I just feel that something superior to us is about to happen, superior to our interests, to the resolution of our contradictions… No, I feel something else. It is above all other kinds of interest, but our gain is far superior to others. Strange! he concluded by looking to close the projection.
- There is nothing strange… The meaning of the perception is different… You are someone’s mortgage, others are your mortgage… The analysis can only result to your advantage, regardless of your reactions, as a group or, please, as a council.
- Good, good!!! Let me see what about Atma?!? Seems pointless to me as long as my Dan has very little chance of tangentiality to the outcome of their actions at the moment.
- But what about Corasdo? The direct tangent to him can affect him more than a position of relative indifference can allow. And, through him…
- On my Dan… On me, he forced himself to conclude…
- Let’s contact Atma, let’s see what we can agree on!
- Are you forgetting my support position for Dan?!? He must issue claims. Corasdo is support, in turn, Dan, but he also complicated himself with the position of support for Atma… My intervention is as unnecessary as it is wrong.
- Ohhh, at the last council they asked for your support… You forgot!
- No, but I don’t feel like that’s a solution, at least at the moment. My Dan, like the global elements, is facing significant changes in his way of life. Atma, likewise… Corasdo is the point of balance, reassurance required by the presence of our containers. A deal with the Atma would destabilize its direct, uninfluenced manifestations. Corasdo made this clear.
- Even I feel that Atma would be the optimal point of insertion, of intervention.
- And I made the clear, indubitable, indisputable decision that I will act only at the right moment. I will prepare nothing, absolutely nothing. They have enough actions to initiate and complete. As far as I can stake the trump card in this decision is the need for the Atma to choose the final container, the one with which it will continue its most important part of evolution.
- You don’t feel destabilized about this?!?
- Obviously, I feel it. Destabilization is already omnipresent. Why would all the containers involved, with their entities and everything, have the faintest chance to isolate themselves from the whole evolving like this?!? That is, destabilization… The time of the containers, their way of manifestation, offers far too few opportunities for intervention to be able to create real, concrete, correct. I can’t waste myself trying to clarify. The best clarification is direct experience. And, for me to have some kind of possibility of evaluation and influence, I need this direct experience…
- Correct. I have come to a clear conclusion. You wait to see how the direct experience materializes and then you’ll decide…
- Maybe?!? thought feeling a certainty impossible not to perceive, isolated to clear perception, even though everything seems the manifestation of doubt. The benchmarks are clear… Dan, from the position of my container, the council… No, the council is the filter of the water in the aquarium we will be swimming in… It is not a real priority… It is just my manifestation in the demands for action that arise through membership of this council… Even though I am considered to be the true leader of… Corasdo is like me and only falls into my real sphere of interest if… Yes, he is also secondary… Like the council…
- All that remains is…
- Atma…
- Conclusion?!?
- Dan, as my container, and Monique and Lily as Atma’s containers. I always perceived that I came to help and to help only those who ask for my help. Atma identified me very quickly but there wasn’t any line of correlation. It was only after he convinced Ortwin of Corasdo that intersection points began to be born… But also, those rather strange ones… Born only on the acceptances of the collaterals involved, such as Aurel, Fran… Ohhh, what’s the point of continuing the logic?!? I have considered and re-considered all these elements countless times…
- But it will be Corasdo who sparks the engagement. On any evolutionary variant, he is at that point where he can initiate all these evolutions…
- I feel that developments are already triggered without his intervention… He can “chisel” some of these developments, allowing those directly involved to have some advantages… That’s all…
- Why are you so sure?!?
- There can be many, many inserts. For example, you who intervene in our energy, in our manifestations, you who read these lines, what do you think, should I stay focused on the line of my container, Mircea Dan, or should I intervene in the energies of the Atma, in those of its containers… Sorry, only one container, that of Monique Touran. Maybe I will have some possibilities to participate actively in the case of Lily Touran too, but I don’t see how it is possible at this moment… They are twin sisters… Maybe the differences between their lives are not that big.
- That’s right, another thought intervenes, maybe everything is much simpler as we advance in their experiences… It’s about the same entity, Atma…
- Basically, you have the opportunity to know some things about these people… You can choose to “benefit” from some details about Mircea Dan… Or from some details about Monique Touran. Or both…
- Hey there, focus! You, dear reader, if you don’t want details about the main characters and intuitively prefer to keep Dan’s evolutionary line, you can choose this. If you want Monique’s line, “jump” to her, to them! Or, if you are curious, read the whole thing, without an introduction of the heroes, and you will decide what lines, actions, ideas, etc. you will follow! Goodbye! I feel a call and I have to leave you for the moment…
- Dear reader, forgive Iryu, the Presence intervened as soon as Iryu went out of flow. That’s how he is, more direct… Now come on, listen to his advice!
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Content
Let’s get to know each other — Mircea Dan
Let’s get to know each other — Monique Touran