Mortgage One’s Soul
Mortgage One’s Soul — Chapter 2 — Consequences — Part 5
Monique Touran, Day 1, Indecision
Merticaru Dorin Nicolae
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Monique Touran — Day 1 — Indecision
She opened her eyes staring blankly, having, experienced a clear feeling of fear, anxiety… Something related to… Why?!? Lily?!?
What could it be?!? she thought in disgust.
Not finding an answer, she felt that anxiety was growing, intensifying… She could no longer stay in bed. She must go to Lily, see her, shut down all this anxiety… Feeling insecure?!? What happens?!? Monique thought already scared.
She jumped out of bed and quickly walked the distance to the “Heart” door, but when she got there, she didn’t press the opening mechanism.
I need to calm down first. I can’t enter her like that. She won’t understand why I’m so scared and so captive to my nightmare weakness… But I didn’t have a nightmare. I don’t even remember what I dreamed… Ohhh, I must calm down!
And start the breathing and alpha relaxation exercises so well known, so practiced. They always had almost immediate success, but now it takes a while to stabilize, to feel balanced. Then the opening of the door in the “Heart” takes place.
Lily was sleeping naked, wearing only a pink, almost non-existent bikini. The pink color always reminded her of her childhood dolls, it conveyed the peace and joy of being with her twin sister, of being with the other her, with the strong side of the twins.
Peace, joy, desire to play but also a kind of strange sexual feeling. She has always loved the curves of Lily’s body… As well as hers… She has always felt the sensuality of embracing her sister’s body, a sensuality that surpasses the smallness of the sexual one, that offers everything and not just pleasure or what else an agreed partner could offer you.
She came closer and sat next to her. She was sleeping like a baby, her little finger hanging from her bottom lip, breathing slowly, deeply. Godly power, how wonderful Lily is…
She notices Lily’s locket, the one that matches hers, the ones they were told were given by her father, to their mother, shortly before he left this time, this dimension… It sat against her shoulder, like a sign distinctive, like some sort of emblem… Ohhh, if only she’d had the joy of knowing her father for real, Monique thought as she peeled the locket from Lily’s shoulder and let it fall past her breasts in the natural position of wearing a medallion…
Then she smelled her body, her sweat, and couldn’t help but kiss her tenderly on the cheek… Lily’s salty-sweet taste always made her want to hug her, to calm down knowing that she was by her side.
Since childhood, the few moments when she was by her side created this crazy feeling, of safety, of protection, of fulfillment when she is by her side, glued to her back in an embrace of absolute union, of rediscovery.
And she couldn’t help herself and lay down next to her, clinging as she did in their childhood. Absorbing all the scents offered by this wonderful moment, sensing the thrill of her sister’s body clinging to her in response to their embrace.
Ohhh, if she were awake, she would talk… Her voice had something sublime, strengthening, bringing inexhaustible energy… That’s why she liked to record her voice and listen to herself. Then she found Lily’s voice even if it was her voice. Her brain did not receive her voice, it had a different resonance. But when he registered, he found Lily’s voice… He found the peace of her presence!
Then she felt the restlessness again… Divine power, this has never happened to me before… What’s going on?!? What is it?!?
She is trying to identify a comparable situation in her past, a similar source of anxiety… I must first analyze the past to launch myself into the future… Why did I think about the future?!? Then she noticed that she was caressing Lily’s curves with the back of her hand, in tender gestures, absorbing every touch…
Fear, fear! Something growing devouring was Monique’s next thought… I need to calm down… And leave… I can’t corrupt Lily with these energies…
And she got up, stealing a last kiss from Lily’s shoulder, exited the “Heart” and threw herself into the armchair in the living room, leaning her head back, entering the relaxation effort necessary for the introspection that will trigger her through self-hypnosis. It took an unusually long time for her to reach the level of relaxation to begin the regression of introspection…
OK, they were born from the love of Fran and Adeline Touran… He was a soldier who fell due to serious injuries during a mission, she was a woman who lived in love with him, then the disaster after his departure… And the loss of a child at birth…
How cruel this world is, she thought, interrupting her introspection! When the Touran twins were born, Fran was deceased. And they all experienced the misfortune of being forced into the “Doppelganger” program, initiated by the Center… No one asked if there was any acceptance… Society is the one who decides the usefulness of any individual… We come alone to live in the herd. And those who do not adapt become the food of the herd… No one can become a prey animal in a herd of prey animals… You live with the pack, or you become its food… Simple…
She felt her anxiety turn to anger… She knew she had to let the energies stabilize and let her perceptions free in the direction they had started…
They had found out the truth about their family late, only when they had the right of unlimited access to the information provided by the “Biom Center” when they became operative agents with full rights…
In short! ordered the flow of Monique’s thoughts…
Fran Touran and Mircea Aurel had died like fools, who can even be called heroes, in a mission on a boulder called Ganymede near Jupiter. Their father didn’t get to see them anymore… The only survivor of the patrol was Corasdo Constantin… From the data she collected, they died for Corasdo…
Hence their hatred and desire to make Corasdo pay for the needless death of their father… Whose existence would have escaped them from the Center… Although the rest of their lives, well, those that Corasdo knew of, were always under his absolute care as if Adeline was under his tutelage and Monique like his daughter… He did the same with the Mircea family, but here things are a bit more complicated… Between Corasdo and Anda Mircea, there is pure love, something that surpasses any imagination… Something difficult to translate by her, by Monique…
From here a kind of strange jealousy, felt by both her and Lily, directed towards Mircea Dan… The one who benefited from a much stronger love than them, of course, when it was their turn, the one who, not least, benefited from the freedom to be him and what he wants…
Keep the line of release, corrected Monique’s train of thought… So, their mother didn’t get to see them either… The Center had intervened and declared twin Lily Touran as stillborn, the survivor of the birth being only Monique Touran… Everything for the perfect fit in “Doppelganger “…
And thus, without even knowing, she “benefited” from her children in turn… For her, Monique, but also for Lily, that period was an uncertain one, in which the memories were very well controlled by the memory concentrators used to the maximum to control the children’s reactions in the presence of parents who had no idea of their constant change… Or they noticed some change but… What does it matter… None of the parents of twins included in the program realized… Or, who knows … It is only certain that the Center was doing its job very well… It had only been active for several hundred years…
And, besides, their mother had gone a bit crazy and had been moved to an area with instabilities like hers… After experiencing absolute love with Fran, she had to go through the death of him and one of the children at the same time… Hard to resist such a thing… Neither she nor Lily could stop their accusing thoughts about her weakness, about her giving in… For more than 6 earthly years she was in a terrible depression, and, after that, she began to live life in the most embarrassing, humble, and sexual behaviors… But who are they to judge their mother?!?
The center with his “Doppelganger” had nothing but to gain from all this… The surviving daughter, Monique, was officially taken into a juvenile center… In reality, it was a full training center… But this situation was in their favor, of the twins, who, from that moment on, lived their lives together, as true sisters, being inseparable until the moment they became operatives…
Now they are only together when they retreat to the “Heart” … The place where the space is protected, and they can be… Them… The rest is just Monique Touran… She is Monique, but Lily must be Monique… They go out one by one thus ensuring the biom center only the data of the existence of only one of them… The synchronizations, the identical lifestyles, everything they studied in training thus ensures the official presence of only one of them… And when Lily acts, she, Monique, is the perfect alibi for the discovery of any connection, of eliminating any trail of judicial or forensic investigation to them… Or, just to her, Monique… Lily does not exist in any official records…
And she, Monique, deals with the planning, with everything related to the preparation of the operations, while Lily is the action… Ohhh, unfortunate insertion of them in this “Doppelganger” …
“Doppelganger”, yes… It was an old program run by society to be able to create certain loopholes in the particularly “social” legislative system but particularly difficult to keep within functional parameters… Well, the way of life is one thing, and its maintenance is another, perceived Monique with a kind of overwhelming disgust…
This program was looking for univiteline twin births, took control, and followed the dance that they, Monique and Lily live…
There were countless such situations, thousands and thousands of twins who were active in the unknown army of the Center, to maintain the lifestyle of the society… They knew each other but were not allowed to see each other, to meet, under the penalty of the death of one of the twins and of completely erasing the other’s brain… Punishment completed… Ohhh…
They looked for countless ways to escape but… All they had to do was take care of them and live the half-lives they were destined for… Well, by Lily’s will, she lived a little longer… Lily was a fan of unloading and retreating into solitude and training… Moreover, her actions were particularly short… Efficient… Both when it came to the operations requested by the Center and when it came to her downloads with Rick Aceman… At this moment…
She’s been with this guy for some time… She’s also living something more special… Until now I didn’t think about it… I just missions, missions, missions… Preparation requires a bit more time, more effort… Ohhh ….
Then she remembered the incident with the guard… Ronie Gautier… Yes, that was the name…
And, also then, anxiety invaded her, suffocating her… The sensation was so strong that it threw her out of the trance of introspection… The anxiety grew in intensity becoming… Yes, horror…
Something told her instantly, surely, that this was the real source of her uneasiness… That inner, clairvoyant sense of every woman tells her that this was the problem…
She activates the communication terminal and starts the searches… She quickly selects all matches, initiates the search by “landmarks”, specific activity, and recent locations, and quickly identifies it…
Ronie Gautier, husband of Michelle, father of Eduard and Genoveva… Massive and highly appreciated activity in support and protection… Ever since he finished his general studies at the Military Academy… How strange, to finish the Military Academy and move on to civilian activity?!? Certainly, there were many more rewards in the civilian direction… If he so chose… Employed 6 years ago at Gillian Co. That’s all…
They began to expand their relationship searches… Connections… The holographic family snapshots revealed a happy family, concerned with living life as they saw it… Friends… A few… But faithful friends… Loyal and living their every joy together… Every tourist outing or leisure… Look, only smiles, living…
Somewhere, in the depths of her soul, she feels a kind of disappointment that she, that they, cannot be part of something like this…
And Things are getting complicated at my job too… With the incident with Corasdo and the army group… Really, I had to do some more digging in this direction… But to finish with Ronnie… She transfers all the search results to a memory stick and gets to work looking for any detail in the message problem…
She had discovered the correlations of the group Thank — Ada and Corasdo — Dan, with the point of intersection concentrated on Dan and the “common” relationship with Ada who is now more than the right hand of Thank… All from the benches of the academy… OK…
Dan had attended the academy and became a common transport pilot, experiencing his disappointment after losing Ada, living with whatever woman he was dating until he met Ema Victor… Since then, he has been in a stable relationship with her… I know everything about his relationship with Corasdo…
Let’s now move on to Thank… Thank Faust… Rapid Ascension… look! Dates, dates, dates… Zero pilots, medalists, decorated… God power, this guy is a real machine… He already has 3 doctorates… Wow, Monique couldn’t help but express her admiration… Nothing stops him in any direction he takes. it shows activity… And it doesn’t look bad either…
Enough with this! she thought, lying down tiredly… I’m saving the data and will continue the correlations… Ah, but I forgot about Ada… So… Ada Pugno Faust… He, he, he, what arrogance! She only wanted to take Thank’s name as an addition… Dates, dates, dates… Well, it was also normal… The neighborhood girl… She sticks to the strong one… No scruples, no remorse…
The holographic snapshots with Dan had caught his attention… Ada’s relatively masculine appearance was simply transformed… She was downright attractive, feminine, in Dan’s presence… She exuded life, power… Love… Well, they made love with true… Look, any snapshot next to Thank reveals the man woman… None of the light she gave off next to Dan… Clear… Directly compare the snapshots… No doubt… She left the fool no matter how much she loved him so she could have the comforts and conveniences she wanted… Oh well, how full of fools this world is…
And the mess, this profiteer of Ada, look, she is paying hard for the sacrifice she made for the golden cage she chose… Yes, look, she also quickly and efficiently climbed the ladder of the military hierarchy… Normal… When you have your back, every fool advances in rank… People like her, plant themselves in the chair and grow like any plant… With time… She needed the feeling of having power… Otherwise, she would have lived her freedom, she would have lived her life… And, what good is her sacrifice when his whole being just emanates… Ohhh, I’m getting mean… Maybe I’m too picky… Go on!
But he couldn’t help himself and check the look in Dan’s snapshots, when he was with Ada and after… Ohhh, bro… The clear difference, no doubt… With Ada he was alive, without Ada, he’s a living dead… Then compare with the available images of Dan with Ema… Well, still a living dead, but a little more beautified by… Yes, obviously, Ema’s love… The pictures say it all… Basically, sucker to sucker pulls, or vice versa?!?
So, I must insist on the Thank — Ada group. That much is clear. She sets a note to remind her of this goal and feels relieved as if she feels she’s accomplished her mission for the time being.
Then she felt immense fatigue… She stretched out for a long time, trying to loosen every numb muscle… It’s extremely late… And a distressing day is ahead… She tried to collect herself, to find some more energy resources but… Her indecision was too pronounced… So did fatigue… But she was going to Coras Inc to start a new day of work.
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