TRANSGENDER

The Greek GODZ of Birthdays Messed with my MoJo

Reflecting on my transition journey this week

WEEK 53 CHECK-IN:

Trans Life Past: This week, I’ll be celebrated 1 year on T, going for my check up with my Trans GP, having a face-to-face therapy session with GT, going to the GODZ show, checking our the Fringe Festival, checking into my executive spa room for two nights, turning 1 AND turning… 47 (EEP! I mean, 19. Always 19, lol), walking the Solar System in St Kilda, submitting my FINAL uni assignments (just one exam to go)… Yeah, think that’s enough!

• T-birthday — check. See day 366 below.
• Trans GP checkup — check. All looks good. More in day 369 below.
• Face-to-face therapy session didn’t happen, because it rained so hard I couldn’t walk there. But, we did the old Zoom thing. We also change our day and dropped back to 3 weeks instead of 2. THAT is how impactful the last session was, lol.
• GODZ show — check. See day 370 below.
• Checking out the fringe festival — half check. I saw some stuff while at GODZ. Lol.
• Executive spa suite — check. But don’t let the name fool you like it did me! Spa doesn’t work. There is a single bathtub with spa thingys, sure, but they don’t work. Lol. Oh well.
• Meat sack birthday — check. See day 372 below.
• Walking the solar system… see day 372 below (with a follow-up to come).
• Submitting final uni assignments — CHECK! See day 367 below.

Priorities: 1. Uni — I’m only making uni top priority to get it out of the way. It will be top priority today and Monday ONLY!

• So, I mostly worked on it on Sunday, lol. But I ended up just sticking Otter(*) on and voice recording me stumbling over thoughts and then shoehorned some references in. NOTE: This is NOT how you are ‘supposed to’ do a uni assignment, but, existential ambivalence won!

2. Birthday week — It’s my party and I’ll drink the whole bottle of wine in the spa by myself while reading if I want to!

• So I didn’t drink the whole bottle of wine in the spa to myself while reading because the spa didn’t work, haha. But, I DID have a yummy cocktail and calami dinner at La Bodega while reading a book, lol.

3. The voices, always the voices — In between the celebrations, it’s more fun with getting Un-Hustle done and published.

• So close! Just doing a final voice read-through and should have it published over the weekend.

Other Notes:

• The biggest thing this week, was turning 1. Much bigger than the meat sack birthday. 1 year on T. Amazing. Does it feel like it? Hells no. Do I look like it? Hmm… what is it ‘supposed’ to look like (lol, see what I did there)? Has it made a difference? Indubitably! Everything works better on T (for me). I work better on T. I function better on T. One of the FIRST articles I wrote on here, when I was just beginning to explore my gender, asked the question, “What if my blueprint is faulty?” It’s never had a lot of views, but OMG, it seems so relevant now. Maybe I should do a follow-up!

(*) — Otter affiliate link. IF you happen to join at a paid level, I score a month of pro but I’m a freebie member so I really don’t care, haha. Just thought, why not, lol.

T-Day and Beyond Daily Journal:

Day 366 (Sunday): I booked tickets to Hamilton, because Happy T-Day to me!

Yep, I’m one year old today.

Day 367 (Monday): Uni assignments, argh. And then existential ambivalence hit!

This morning it kind of hit me how much the assignments didn’t matter, because marks don’t matter. The piece of paper doesn’t even matter. I didn’t do this degree for a ‘career’. I did it to enhance the one I’m already building for myself. So, PFFT!

After that clarity, I had both assignments yeeted out of my life by 3pm. YAY! Now, I only have one exam left until uni is done. I’ve already done the ‘practice test’ and I’m fine! I did that in week 6 (of 12) and having only really gone through 4 of the modules, but I still somehow pulled 70% so yeah, I’m definitely going to be fine. Even with existential ambivalence, I would not at all be surprised to pull High Distinctions for both subjects. Shrug! What can I say?

Day 368 (Tuesday): AHM knows what’s up.

I changed my details with my private health insurance and THEY asked ME if they needed to change my gender. OMG, such enby joy!

But the way they asked was hilarious and I didn’t even notice until Kristy Westaway pointed it out.

AHM customer service rep: Do I need to change gender also?

I don’t know, hun, do you? Are you questioning? Did I just prompt a sudden gender crisis? Hahaha. I mean, sure, why not? Wait — is THIS the trans agenda I keep hearing about? Lol.

Anyway, what I actually said was OMG, thank you for asking! I had it in the back of my mind to see if I could at least have Mx as my title, but for them to ask ME about gender was just, mindblowing. So now, my health insurance has me listed as Mx and non-binary!

WINNING!

Also, for clarity, this is health insurance in Australia — cheap ass ‘extras’ cover for dental and glasses.

Day 369 (Wednesday): So Hamilton was wicked AF!

I would have appreciated more queer fun, but it was pretty epic. On the advice of my trans GP, I did a little research on the characters before I saw it. A very little. The cast was absolutely amazing and apart from not enough queer for me (lol), diversity was solid.

In trans GP news, so all my numbers a looking really good. My T levels were at 20 which is an ideal target apparently. I’ve only lost 6 kg, but I’m down 3 belt notches and I feel that is much more telling. Results from my last ultrasound looked great (there’s another story there for another time — but suffice to say, YAY for self-healing and self-medication apparently…). Even my Iron levels are NORMAL for the first time in… at least four years! So lots of wins.

Day 370 (Thursday): But then, of course, the government fucked it up!

So, I went to fill out the form I needed to ensure I received the full government rebate on my private health insurance… and there was the question. Sex/gender with binary options. Then at the end of the form, I have to sign a declaration to say everything is correct and that providing false information is a federal offense. But, they are forcing me to provide false information, so how does that work?

In other news, GODZ was freakin’ phenomenal! Anyone in Melbourne, get onto it! And for everyone else, if you ever get a chance to see Head First Acrobats, I highly recommend it! (external link:)

Day 371 (Friday): Woolworths has installed binary-only sensors! Oh no!

But seriously. Someone went through the sensor doors just before me and then, they closed on me! Rude. So I stepped back and tried again, but nothing.

My brain (because creative brains can be dramatic, lol) => ERASURE! OMG, they have totally locked me out! They saw me coming and decided, NO, YOU SHALL NOT PASS! My inner voice lolz often needs to be shared with my bestie and it was them that said — “BINARY ONLY DOORS!”

Bastards! Hahaha. Don’t worry, I snuck around the other side. No one can keep a good enby out. Yeah, it’s the trans agenda again, lol.

Day 372 (Saturday): It’s my birthday and I’ll cry if I want to. But why do I want to?

Yeah, I had the weirds pretty solidly all day today for some reason. My plans for the day went out the window but once I released my need to control it and just, let my intuition take over, it turned out pretty good.

In fact, I’m going to write a whole post about it, because the weirds were super intense and I had a VERY different day than I expected.

This Week’s Articles:

And on to WEEK 54:

Trans Life Ahead: Moving again, but I only have 2 sits over the next four months, so WOOT! Nice to settle although this next one is three dogs (one is very old but one is a LARGE energetic puppy) so I’m a little anxious about it. They’ll be fine once they settle though. I have my uni exam this week and then, uni is DONE and I officially have nothing to do except write! Lol.

Priorities: 1. Physcial movement — 40km (I did 41 this week, so I can pull my shit together) 2. Sitter profile — Start creating my website and draft some starter articles for Adventures in Petsitting 3. Voices — publish Un-Hustle and work on Living on Purpose

Dose: 3 Pumps/day (37.5mg)

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