Day 1: T-Day

Summary

The content describes the author's journey on the first day of starting Testogel, following a therapy session with their Gender Therapist (GT), which helped them overcome an existential crisis and imposter syndrome.

Abstract

The author recounts their experience of beginning hormone replacement therapy (HRT) with Testogel, marked by an emotional therapy session with their Gender Therapist. Despite initial fears and a crisis of identity, the therapist's support and sharing of personal experiences provided comfort and reassurance. The author, initially hesitant to take the first dose, awoke the next day with a sense of excitement and certainty about their decision. The day after starting HRT, they felt a sense of calm and energy, interpreting these positive feelings as signs that they are on the right path. The article also includes links to related content about the author's transgender experience and personal background.

Opinions

The author expresses a deep sense of relief and validation after the therapy session, indicating a strong trust in their therapist's guidance.
There is a hint of infatuation with the therapist, which the author quickly dismisses as inappropriate, suggesting a struggle with professional boundaries.
The author's excitement about starting HRT and the subsequent positive feelings imply a strong conviction that they are taking the correct steps in their gender transition.
The author believes that the positive emotional changes are linked to beginning testosterone, even if it's too early for physical effects to be noticeable.
By choosing not to share specific details of the therapist's experiences, the author respects privacy and confidentiality, emphasizing the personal nature of the therapeutic process.
The inclusion of related articles shows the author's commitment to sharing their journey and engaging with the broader transgender community.

THERAPY SESSION

You can probably tell from the actual title of the article, that I recovered from my impromptu mental breakdown. GT was amazing as always (don’t think about him like that, don’t think about him like that)… and I definitely have a crush, I mean, I don’t have a crush because that would be totally inappropriate. Anyway, where were we? Right, so GT shared some of his own experiences which I won’t share here because they are not mine to share but suffice to say that I felt a hell of a lot better.

GT helped me be okay with freaking out about something that really is, pretty big, and we uncovered a few things that we’re probably getting in the way. No, were definitely getting in the way!

Something shifted!

Later that afternoon, I began feeling excited and wanting to take that first dose. But I didn’t. I let myself sit with it and make sure the excitement was real. When I woke in the morning and the excitement was buzzing in my chest, I knew, it was time.

I seriously haven’t been able to wipe the smile off my face all day and I want the day to be over so that I can wake up and do it again.

It’s too early to say T is having any effect at all on me but today I’ve felt calmer than I have in… so long. I feel energetic and I weirdly haven’t been craving chocolate all day. I doubt it’s the T directly but if just knowing I’m starting my journey is having this effect, then I must be doing something right and I’m not about to stop.

TRANSGENDER

Day 1: T-Day

So it begins

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About Me — KP-the-Writer

Podcaster, writer, and queer, oh my