Be Open (More About Me) - A Shayens Abran
Who I am story. Still needs updated!
Hello! My name Aran Shayens Abran. In this post, I will tell a little about me. Just a little, because actually I’m introvert as a person. And, as I have created a publication named Be Open, I’ll try to open up about myself, so my readers will know me more.
Note: It’s a hasty writing’s story, so, I just wrote things I can remember. Also, I’m sorry for the bad grammars as I’m non native English and so struggle to write!
Yes. I admit that I’m not good enough to be a writer. Actually, since kid, I love reading activity, crafting and arts. I loved reading anything that involve imagination and things wonderful and beautiful. I’m always being amazed to read about galaxy as it’s amazing world, about unicorn horse, or romantic love story.
However, for writing activity, such as create a good engaging story that rich of analytics (in nonfiction) or complicated scenes (in fiction), to be honest, I always have difficulties in it.
Every writers even a master may have the situation called writer block! But, for me, it seems I have this situation almost everytime when I need/have to write out things in my mind.
Actually, I have wonderful imaginations in my mind (in conducive situation, comfortably and clear feeling), but I always struggle how to transfer, to translate those pictures, those scenes into writing.
And though with so much struggles, eventually and surprisingly I have created some pieces, and I'm confident enough to put a title somewhere: I'm a Writer! :-)
My nonfictions
My poems
My fiction series (Soo slow update!)
Actually, not only in writing, I tend to have difficulties verbally. I’m not numb, but it’s always hard for me to express my true feelings, my ideas through speeches. And it’s sucks!
When someone suddenly come and asking something, I would be blankly,don’t know what to say, even for something simple.
It’s always difficult to start, to make and to inolve in conversation. I would just sit at the corner, in my own world or just to be listener, and it’s always awkward things for me and weird things to see. I always wonder why everybody can be so passionately laughing and can talk everything.
This situation and also some other weirdness I have had since chidhood (maybe someday I will write it out detailly), had made me became a target of bullying by the superior cruel kids at school. Even when I need help as a weird kid and bullied, my family had treated me wrong which worsen my mental health. And all that things have been affecting my adult life. Actually I’m still struggling to cope all these things. I’m still socially awkward, such as anxiety in public place, difficult to build conversation, etc.
You can read some of my personal story below:
Now, I’m trying things I’m comfortable to do to ease my anxieties. I begin to create writing and post them on Medium platform as it feels easier/simple than using blog or social medias. Sometimes I do painting or drawing too.
About my difficulties, finally after some research, I found that I have Asperger syndrome, a mild Autism (years before, Asergers was separeated from Autism, but now it’s identified as syndrome in spectrum of Autism).
Here's the finding story of my identity:
So, only this I can write. Will be updated next time!
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