Press Play & Strut — IV

Me, Myself & I-model

Projected into a single’s world has made me love myself.

Egocentric? NO!

Why shouldn’t I love myself?

I am now spending non-stop 24 hours with myself. What would happen if I would dislike myself? How could I go on?

My compassion towards my surrounding has always been important but has now risen exponentially. Like I feel all the pain, deception and hurt within people around me. I have always helped people in need around me. But somehow, it seems I can manage to help more now.

Some days I feel completely weak but content. And I love myself even more.

Egocentric? NO!

Why shouldn’t I love myself?

I am now more fit than I ever have been since the past 20 years.

What would happen if I maltreated myself?

Why would I auto-destruct myself?

My first year after the break up I took all the time I needed to rebuild a life (still cannot say my life) and a place to live (still cannot say home). Since I live alone, I started the second year of my separation thinking I would like to help some special people financially in need. I chose wisely.

Here are some angels I have chosen to help these past few years, in no particular order of importance.

For three years in a row I offered my help to children with cancer. For the Great Cycle Challenge, in June 2018, I raised roughly 5000$ and cycled 513km. In June 2019, I raised roughly 2100$ and cycled 1010km.

This year, the Great Cycle Challenge has been postponed in August because of the pandemic situation. So at first, I wanted to pass this year. But then I told myself I could still do it by setting lower goals. So I engaged to cycle 500km and will try to raise 1000$ in these hard financial times. I know it will be harder to get donations, but at the same time these kids’ disease and situation is not just passing through, it is their everyday life.

I surprised my taxi driver Eugénie, a hard working African woman raising on her salary her five kids and still taking care of her family in Burundi.

She is a great inspiration for me. She never asks or complains for anything.

She is always punctual, dedicated and laughing. I just felt she deserved a break.

Special friends and family members have also been taken care of without any of them asking.

Some days I feel completely withdrawn but content. And I love myself even more.

Egocentric? NO!

Why shouldn’t I love myself?

I am now living alone with a decent work, in a small but nice and safe shelter with a comforting view on the St-Lawrence River.

What would happen if I lived in a dump?

Why would I not be able to view daily natural splendor?

Being involuntary forced into a single’s life, my world might be composed of me, myself and I, but my mind, spirit and soul have genuinely improved my highly sensitive captors.

Some days I feel completely numb living in a parallel world, but I am content and at peace with myself. In those days, I try to love myself even more.

Egocentric? NO!

Why shouldn’t I love myself?

I will never let anyone hate myself. No one will ever be able to stop myself from being proud of my own survival skills.

Now, three years later, ironically, I see life has thoroughly prepared and equipped me with the needed traits to survive through these last uncertain harsh months we are all witnessing. Mainly resilience, perseverance and strength.

I present to you the new and improved version of the Me, Myself & I-model.

Francine Fallara 2020

This ends my Press Play & Strut series.

Michele Thill, I discovered your ‘Moving Forward’ and it inspired me to finish my pending Press Play & Strut series.

Thanks for your ongoing strutting motivation.

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