Press Play & Strut — I
Initiating my new life slogan
To make a long story introduction brief, December 20th 2016, my soulmate left me after 28 years of an extraordinary life together. I had just turned 49 two days before. I was completely devastated.
Early January 2017, my dad was officially diagnosed with idiopathic pulmonary fibrosis, an incurable and degenerative illness, tagged as an industrial illness and directly linked to him being a mason and working with asbestos materials back in the sixties.
After a whole month of living in a numb zombie state, I left my work and I moved 775 km south-east from Abitibi-Temiscaminuge region to Quebec City. Basically, ‘losing’ everything I had attempted to build for the last 28 years. Hence, my grief was an all-inclusive package deal containing the ex-soulmate, my adopted town, my close friends, my colleagues and my in-laws.
Having no destructive fibers in me, I first moved to take the time to take care of myself.
I had momentarily wrapped my life within plastic bubble paper and placed it on a shelf; having no life since my break-up, either working 14 days 12 hours shifts in an isolated camp up north in James Bay or on the road back and forth for 14 days 12 hours shifts to Montreal to help my parents go through this horrible time.
In April 2018, fifteen months after being diagnosed and going through extreme suffering in his last five months, my dad was released to a better world.
And the earth shook beneath my feet, and the storm raged through the night, and I lost all that I had won, oh but I flowed like the river
….Flow….o o o oh…. (Shawn James) ….Flow….o o o oh
During the last 36 months, life has shaken my foundations.
I want to advance and become the master of my happiness through my daily choices and attitude.
After my father’s death, I started a wild and ongoing walking and hiking spree which has brought both a revival happiness and a load of sorrow. While walking, mostly alone, my mind took these precious sessions to sweat out all the rough events I had to live through for the past years.
I scheduled a deadline to my sorrow. Yes!
I took the decision to look forward and become a positive impact to my encounters.
I did so, to set and force my brain to extract as much darkness as it could.
And so, not wanting to stress my brain, I gave it another two months.
My days were simple, cry and walk, walk and cry, cry and walk, and sweating all I had to cry out of my system.
On August 2018 I initiated a milestone Life movement
Hello Sunshine!
Breaking the chasm of hard times towards a better life filled with friends and natural beauty.
Press Play & Strut through your life — You deserve it!
“You are being drawn away from the crowd because there is a wild child in you that longs to be set free. Rise above who they told you to be wild one. Remember who you are.” (Bleeding Ink, Brooke Hampton)
“I will not let anyone walk through my mind with their dirty feet.” Mahatma Gandhi (Born Oct 2, 1869)
And so, I gave more emphasis to anything positive or beautiful, and let go of the negative and ugly.
What we can’t control, we have to learn to cope with and remain flexible. (Francine Fallara… my first official quote… 2018–10–12)
Don’t betray your dreams for the sake of fitting in.
Dreamers move the world forward.
Richard Bronson
Walking for me has been incredible! Physically I have not felt so alive since the past couple of years. Mentally, movement brings me extreme joy. Combined to all the kilometers of natural beauties my eyes have captured and securely stored in my brain.
Though, since the end of 2016, I had to live through several harsh bumps and blows, overall it has been a blessing to be able to stay mostly positive. My strength resides in my resilience and positivity. I know I do not want to spend the rest of my life alone and so, living through life-marking experiences has built the base and foundations for the rest of my upcoming incredible life!
Francine Fallara 2020
Michele Thill. I discovered your ‘Moving Forward’ and it inspired me to finish my pending Press Play & Strut series.
Thanks for your ongoing strutting motivation.
Continued in Press Play & Strut — II, III and IV