Day 2: Depression And Dependency Pain
Unfortunate situation happens that doesn’t help things.
Update, May 8, 2022: It’s come to my unfortunate attention that my X has many narcissistic traits. I encourage anyone that is going through a weird and painful relationship to please research narcissism.
No one told me about this and I was clueless. 4 years later I know about narcissism but am paying the very painful price for having dated one. Below are some links for you to learn from. Very helpful and informative.
Narcissist Questions/Answers. / Narcissist Video Help
Day 2:
My girl and I are at odds these days and she wanted some space to think about us.
Last night she went to see a friend’s band and hang out. We talked a little about both of us going days ago.
She hadn’t called yesterday and went to the bar without me.
Later, I figured I would go to see her and have a drink. When I got there I wasn’t sure and drove around a little.
I decided to go home and let her be and I would see her the next day.
Before that, I ran into the bartender who was outside and said, hi. I don’t know if he told her he saw me or?
Today I called my girl who did not answer.
I texted her and she replied about how stupid I was for driving around the bar and not coming in.
I wanted to speak to her and tell her on the phone about how I felt.
But, she wouldn’t have it and demanded I text.
We went back and forth until I chose to not reply back to her demand of texting or emailing.
Now, I sit.
Alone, very sad, yet very adament in my position.
A position that I deserve respect and to talk on the phone.
And not be told to ‘text or The End.’
That’s what she texted, that’s where I left it.
Now, I must exercise my self esteem and confidence and how I want to be treated in a relationship.
Though I love her dearly, she has her own problems which I refuse to take without telling her how I feel about them.
That was Day 2…
peace,