Day 12: Depression And Dependence Pain
Having to see and talk to my X.

Update, May 8, 2022: It’s come to my unfortunate attention that my X has many narcissistic traits. I encourage anyone that is going through a weird and painful relationship to please research narcissism.
No one told me about this and I was clueless. 4 years later I know about narcissism but am paying the very painful price for having dated one. Below are some links for you to learn from. Very helpful and informative.
Narcissist Questions/Answers. / Narcissist Video Help
My girl and I have been broken up 2 weeks and I am broken.
We still have to perform a music show next weekend and are not practiced.
Today I, reluctantly, went to her place to practice.
It was tough!
She was just being civil and not talking much.
We sang and played and she was beautiful and sexy!
I couldn’t stop the thoughts, the memories, the excitement we had.
I wanted to ask her out a thousand times.
I wanted to ask if we had a chance.
I said nothing, too soon.
I said nothing, but smiled inside throughout our rehearsal.
Loving her, secretly, in my mind…
We said bye and will practice again tomorrow.
I will strengthen myself, try to have fun, and be open to the future.
peace,






