An Open Letter To Fear
This note is from a struggling writer and an upset mother…
Dear Fear,
You have been with me since my childhood. I started facing you when my dad tried to throw me out of the house. He closed all the doors and didn’t let me enter the house for hours. I cried and shouted, and you were with me. Thankfully, my mom managed things and brought me in.
You were with me even when I was in boarding school. I was afraid of boys staring at me and taunting me. I dared to look into your eyes because I didn’t want you to ruin my life.
When I grew up, you stood by my side and showed your presence in the form of a husband. The husband who was supposed to be loving and caring ended up becoming the carbon copy of my father. He abused me, tortured me, and brought me to a situation when I wanted to end my own life.
The Fear Of A Mother
Being a mother, I cannot commit suicide since I am responsible for my children’s growth and wellbeing. Just like me, they are afraid of their future. They don’t know how their father will react when they perform a variety of tasks.
This is the point of our lives when we all are afraid of this abuser. The fear has not left me alone, and I don’t know whether I should be thankful to it for making me strong or should curse it for causing a lot of problems for me.
I am not only afraid of my husband but also have a lot of concerns about the future of my children. It is very difficult for me to raise them alone, and I am not being given any cooperation or support.
The Fear Of A Writer
As a writer, I am afraid of being pushed behind the competition. I have started freelancing to feed my children, but I don’t know what will be my fate on this site.
The fact is that every new writer is afraid of this platform and that they are struggling for their survival. Most recently, so many changes in the way posts are curated and distributed have been made. These changes have led me and many other freelance writers feel upset. We are afraid of the outcomes.
How To Deal With The Fear?
I am dealing with fear by working hard. Whether it is the fear of a mother or a struggling writer, it is present all the time and is making my life miserable and difficult.
Still, I am trying to solve all the problems that I come across every single day. I have started working hard, and I hope that the outcomes will be satisfactory. My children will become responsible citizens tomorrow, and I will soon become one of the top writers of this site.