Why I Once Decided To End My Life?
My life is full of problems, and I sometimes think of ending my life…
No matter who we are, where we live and what we do, there will be times when we feel down, when we decide to quit everything, and when we fall ill.
If you have enough money, have a house of your own, have a family and friends to be with, and are successful in your life, then you should not feel proud because even the most successful people in the world can have a lot of problems or challenges in their lives.
The Story Of My Life
In my case, I sometimes feel restless and hopeless. I had once decided to end my life because things were getting out of control. You probably know that my husband does not love me. He keeps shouting at me and tortures me. The only reason why I am not leaving him is my children.
I started freelancing to earn a living because the hubby does not even bother to give me something to be spent on our children.
The previous year, I was beaten by him. I shouted and cried, but our neighbors could not be of help. It was the time when I decided to end my life, but all of a sudden, I asked myself a couple of questions.
What would be the future of my kids?
Would this man marry another woman and leave our children alone?
When would my problems come to an end?
Is this man worth my time?
I failed to get answers to all of these questions, but the only thing that kept me from quitting my life was the love for my children.
Like everybody else, I love my kids a lot. Whatever I earn from freelancing is spent on their education and food. I try to give them the best facilities, but it is not always possible for me since he has made my life miserable.
What Should I Do?
At this point, I have decided to change a couple of things and to bring more and more positivity to my life. Before talking about those things, I would like to admit that the nature of my husband would not change. So, it is my turn to make some decisions for myself and my children as my life revolves around them and they depend on me for everything (like their food, education, health, happiness, and prosperity).
So, let me share with you a couple of things that I will be doing to ensure my survival and happiness.
- Revisiting My Purpose Of Life — The moment I decided to end my life was when I actually got to know that my life was important for my children and that I had no right to punish them by leaving them alone with a man who never gave them a damn. Basically, I revisited my purpose in life and will do the same in the future.
- Remembering My Achievements — For any mother, the major achievement is her children. Am I right? When someone is down and wants to quit, they should always think of the things they have accomplished so far and the ones they can accomplish in the coming months.
Final Thoughts
Anybody who thinks that their life’s problems cannot be solved or that they should end their life should try these ideas. I am one of you, but I will not do so because I have to live for my children. If you are a parent, you can spend time with your kids and should forget what others say or think about you.
Remember that you cannot make everyone happy, but you can at least make those people happy who mean the most to you.