A HiFreequency Stream of Consciousness
I Am Who I Am Now. It Is What It Is.
Hi Notez: 3/7/24
There’s so much on my mind, that I hardly know where to begin. You gotta minute? I wanna tell you something.
Amidst the chaos, life brings you gifts.
We call them lessons. I was only a little girl when life started bringing me mine. Awkward and socially choosey, I managed to learn how to laugh. I mean truly laugh. That gut-hurting, teary-eyed, hyena-sounding, uncontainable laugh, that made anyone nearby feel compelled to laugh themselves. Life is pretty funny if you think about it.
I used to talk to The Universe too. Technically, I still do. But I call It Love. And It’s ALL Love. Sometimes I forget that, falling into the trap of reality, filled with war, famine, deceit, and worst of all, self-hatred. But who am I to judge? Been there. Done that.
I am genuinely here to learn. To learn to live by giving my best to Be better. It’s a rocky road. Most days I teeter between gaining insight and awareness and stubbornly refusing to relinquish the ego bred through the painful separation of a past no longer attainable. And if I’m being honest, no longer desired.
I Am Who I Am Now.
It Is What It Is.
These thoughts, feelings, choices, and actions have cultivated the personality behind my eyes. Some days I giggle like a schoolchild free and unassuming. Others, I am locked down, only sharing my thoughts with myself. Armored.
Wisdom speaks…and I hear you loud and clear. The best I have to offer is an inside job. I’m 30 now, and still a student. And Life is still one hell of a teacher.
Recently, I have realized fate hath no fury. All that comes is what will happen. What I will… Do, Be, and Give is up to me. And 90% of what happens to me in life, is about how I respond.
Today, I received wisdom in the form of life experienced by another. In her words, I saw my quest. A quest to give my best. In his, I reckoned strength and mental resolve. Two ingredients are needed to hold True to Who I am in a reality that can be cold and unforgiving.
If you had asked me if I could received this insight a year ago. I’d tell you no way. You know how the saying goes… When I was a child, I thought like a child. Yeah, that was me. And though I was 29 years old last year, I was still too naïve and too self-centered to see the gifts I had been given by life. Today though, I find grace and gratitude go a long way.
This morning I was reminded of my humanity. I still struggle to face and admit the lack of ownership I take because my mind attempts to place responsibility on the reality before me. I can always do more and there is always more to the story.
I’m still learning though. This ever-evolving journey of becoming and unlearning leads me back to my Self, a part of me I Know by direct feeling more than sight or sense can reason.
I am learning. And that is true.
Today’s Hi Note is as follows,
In the grand tapestry of life, may we weave our threads of growth, guided by mindful choices and anchored in our truth. Let each step forward be taken with grace in the eternal dance of learning and self-realization.
I thank you for spending time with me today, I hope you enjoyed reading my thoughts. Please go check out some of the links I left below.
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