You Gotta Dance It Out, Both Literally and Metaphorically

A half-year review for Dance — my Word for 2021

My journey in Dance didn’t start in 2021. It went back through many past lives, which I only got to uncover recently. So far, I’ve lived as a flower fairy in the garden, where my entire life was a full commitment to dance. It was all I knew — a deep soul calling that I followed faithfully without the distraction of human thoughts and inhibitions. In the next life, I became a human girl who was forbidden to dance, but she danced in her mind and spirit whenever there was an opportunity to hang out with her flower fairy sisters in the garden. And in the most recent one I uncovered, horrible things were being done to me while I couldn’t move most of the time, and my final proactive act of ending my life somehow earned me the freedom to dance in this current life.

All this awareness is helping me realize that my purpose is not about being wildly famous and rich right now. I need to keep trusting in this soulful magic of my Dance and keep Dancing.

I need to first nourish myself with the magic of Dance.

Progress Through My 3 Main Intentions in Dance

I have 3 main intentions in Dance — to be light-hearted, light-footed, and radiate Light. Clarifying these intentions has helped me so much in deepening my journey through Dance.

#1. Being more light-hearted

Dancing intuitively helps me to process, release, and integrate feelings and problems I sense from people, sources of entertainment, and events happening around me.

When I dance to happy and energetic songs, the upbeat rhythm moves through my body and makes me happy too!

#2. Being more light-footed

It’s astonishing that I’ve gained 16 kilograms since being pregnant with my firstborn 9 years ago. What bothers me more than the increased weight, is that I can’t move as well as before. I want to feel more strength and ease in moving my body and dancing it out even more.

Though intuitive dance helps me to release stored emotions and is a great way to be gentler with my body, it was time for me to start exercising more regularly in more enjoyable ways. That’s how I found a wonderful online exercise program that weaves basic Latin dance movements into fun, sensual and energizing dance workouts.

The repeated hip and body twist movements help strengthen and free up my body even more for my freestyle dances. I started this program in mid-June and have been doing the workouts almost everyday. I feel myself gaining more stamina and muscle strength, which helps me to be much more light-footed.

The improvement is so clear when I attend my weekly K-Pop MTV dance class. Here’s a quick video of the dance class I took. Even though the choreography was super tiring and I had to keep my mask on while dancing, I was so proud of myself for hitting most of the steps!

#3. Radiating more Light

As a naturally shy person, I hesitate to chit-chat and share more about myself in casual conversations. But somehow, I love the thrill of performing through dance. Perhaps this sense of magic started from this super old anime series I used to watch as a very young girl.

It’s about this little girl who saved a couple of adorable aliens and was gifted with a magic wand. With a wave of the wand, she transforms herself into a gorgeous young singer superstar and even creates mesmerizing special stage lighting effects while she sings and dances like an angel.

Now, I shine my Light best through the medium of Dance. I bought a handy tripod and took videos of myself dancing at home, in the park with my favorite trees, and my K-Pop dance instructor helps record class videos for us. I then share these little videos with my friends on Facebook and Instagram. In spite of this small voice that keeps saying my dance is not good enough and I’m so fat, so many people have taken the time to share that my dance videos bring them joy. Some of them even feel inspired to start dancing again! This motivates me to share even more and continue the spiral of joy.

I’ve also started taking an online course to learn more about dancing with silk fan veils. To me, dancing with these gorgeous fans reminds me of my angelic origin, and connects me with other sensitive dancers and flow artists. My dance teacher, Natalie from Russia, is a sweet human angel who is a fellow empath and so well-versed in various movement and meditative modalities. It’s such a wonderful privilege to learn from her and be supported by her. She lovingly calls her students ‘sunnies’ — a brilliant reminder of our bright light!

As a way to radiate this Light into other parts of my life, I will be compiling my journey and insights into my third book. Dance is a practical and soulful medicine to me that I want to document and inspire more sensitive souls to try it out through my upcoming book.

Closing Thoughts

In committing to dance, I need to keep facing and dissolving old limiting beliefs that I’ve shimmied down to my ankles now. They’re so close to falling off my aura. I’m now ready to keep doing the work to believe that:

• I am beautiful.
• I can feel and express joy!
• I am doing important healing work for myself and others whenever I dance.
• I am practicing essential self-care when I dance.
• I am worthy of shining my Light.
• I am an artist.
• I am creative.
• I deserve to be supported in my passion for dance.
• I make space for my best mom self, and all aspects of myself when I commit to Dance.
• It is safe for me to stand out from the crowd.

I’m so grateful for the healing and clarity that radiate throughout writing this half-year review.

I want to say that I’m loving all the prompt responses to my guest prompt for KTHT. Thank you, Diana C. for sharing and facilitating all this soulful reflection through this supportive community. I look forward to reading more responses to this :)

Here’s the original article to the prompt if you’d like to participate in it too:

Do feel free to join in Camille Grady’s writing prompt in our Gentleness Ambassadors publication for July 2021 too. Our mission in Gentleness Ambassadors is for fellow writers and readers to share and learn about practicing Gentleness in our daily lives. Do take a look if you hold Gentleness close to your heart too.

Love, Bingz.