Woman's Life: Why I Absolutely Love My Boring Life And You Should Too
Don’t be afraid to give up the good to go for the great. — John D. Rockefeller
Since last few weeks, I have been having weird and strange dreams.
Some times dreams are so lucid and feel like I am way too involved in it and it remains with me most of my morning time.
This kind of dread was more about how stagnant my life become and there is no spontaneity.
I feel like I am on auto pilot where where everything is just happening.
I know what I would be doing every second of every day.
No surprises. No interesting interruptions. No unexpected hiccups.
If you ask me, I can share my next several months plan what I would be doing and where will I be.
See nothing excited or out of ordinary.
I’d get up. Write my gratitude for the day. Make breakfast. Start work and join many zoom meetings you can think of.
Answer emails, and work some more.
By the time I finish it’s already dark outside.
Every day, every week, Same old. Same old. Same old.
I shared to a couple of friends how utterly bored I was. Was this it for me?
Somehow, it started to feel like my life here in this house would be the landscape of the my entire life.
Things are okay at this time if you look from outside and sometimes you may feel an awe, some of my friends feels the same.
They comment how enjoyable life I have where I have no family responsibility, no child to take care or not even a big house to take care.
Sometimes it becomes hard to explain as well when your friends stop relating to you.
Even my efforts to shake things up didn’t seem to make much improvement.
And then…the change came.
And suddenly, I realized the gravity of what I’d been wishing for.
I’ve never been a fan of change.
But you know change is needed for you to grow- grow in life.
I’ve learned to re look at some of the moments of drastic change in my life — family drama, breakups, moving to another country, living alone.
Without those terrifying and sorrowful changes, I never would have become the person that I am.
I try to be open to change but it so much trouble. Isn’t ?
And yet there I was, this past year, hoping for it.
Needing it.
Feeling like my world was getting smaller.
Shouldn’t I have been more grateful for what I already had?
Maybe I should have wished to just love the stagnancy, instead of asking for change.
What the hell was I thinking?
I wake up every morning, open the curtains in my bedroom and look outside, everything looks different, somehow, even though nothing out there has changed.
Only I have.
Only the way I see things.
In some ways, my routine hasn’t changed that much.
I still get up, drink my morning tea, eat breakfast.
I still do my work, attend zoom meetings, and take my midmorning snack breaks.
But somehow, things have changed.
And more change will come, in one form or another.
That is inevitable.
I know for the fact that nothing stays the same.
I tried to stop it.
To avoid all this change that is inevitable — the joyful, the painful.
All of it.
I don’t really know what happened.
I couldn’t hold my ground.
I guess on some level, I really did want change.
I really did long for something different.
I really did need to-grow.
“Love your life the way it is now — because change will come, whether you wish for it or not.”
I realize change always shows up at our door. Doesn’t matter if I intended to, or not.
It would have come, one way or another.
So yes, my friends: Love your life the way it is now.
Love it in all its banality, in all its predictability.
Because one day, it will indeed change.
And when it does, you will need to be rooted in the gratitude for what you have in order to have the strength and bravery to embrace everything that comes next.
Be Bold
Be Courageous
Be Your Best