When Rejection Hits Me Hard | It’s Not Me, It’s You

And perhaps something better is in store for me.

So something despairing happened to me recently. I blamed the troubles on myself because it confused me. I wanted this dream project so badly. I already believed it was going well and smoothly.

As a freelancer, losing a project is heartbreaking sleepless nights and skipped meals are daring To prepare me and make them proud I want everything neat and sound

Patiently, I waited 4 hours for nothing Eventually, they started apologizing The meeting got rescheduled. And I couldn’t say anything I still wanted to work with them, so I said, “It’s okay.” Smiling.

I cleared my schedule for the whole day Because I wanted to focus on it in every way I dressed up and did not eat breakfast Made sure that you would say ‘yes’ to me, at last

Initially, everything worked accordingly. You welcomed and congratulated me. I was over the moon after the Zoom My face lit up as I left the room

A few hours later, I received an e-mail I did not expect to read the word “Failed.” No reason or at least a clue to make me understand why for this project I couldn’t be

I believed I did my best, and I was confident. But now I feel like rubbish, and I fret When I want something, I always make sure To prove my real me, because my heart I know it’s pure.

I’m broken and hurt My hard work is not a dirt But this I know too That it’s not me, it’s you.

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I thank Jolie A. Doggett for this stimulating prompt for Week 4 of Write Here.

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