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We Decided To Open Ourselves To Intimacy

We’re bravely going where we’ve never gone before.

Despite what some may show, we all want to experience intimacy. Genuine intimacy involves trust and a willingness to be vulnerable. Some of us are avoidant because we’re afraid of getting hurt.

We do strange things, like lean in, then subtly retreat. We come on strong, then suddenly disappear when the other reciprocates. We might even let ourselves get close enough to feel that deep connection, but end it before we might “fall” for someone. We change our minds a few times, unsure if we want to take a chance.

Sometimes we keep revisiting the same person but avoid diving into the deep end. We’re trying to be intimate but still scared to expose ourselves. Particular situations call for being cautionary. You and I have a couple of reasons for not going deeper yet. But I want to take a chance anyway.

I usually fall for people who are intimidated by an emotional connection. You appear open to physical intimacy, but I sense the emotional aspect is more of a challenge. I get it. No one wants to feel the pain of heartbreak. But that’s why we have patches. My patched-up heart displays my stories of love and loss, and I accept it all.

For the first time, I’m offering emotional intimacy without expectation. I’m happy to go deeper if you’re available. If you’re not, though, I have others with whom I can seek out intimacy. I understand and accept that not everyone is up for what I offer.

I’ve never held back my feelings for people. It’s not in my nature to hide anything, and I don’t want to change that about myself. I can tell when someone isn’t ready for the same ride I want to take.

I’m currently feeling untethered, and that’s not necessarily a bad thing. I loosened my limited beliefs and released old behaviors. I had a habit of holding onto expectations of how an intimate relationship is supposed to progress. I don’t feel that way now. My only expectation is that more good will come from what we’ve begun to cultivate.

Once a friendship passes over the threshold into lover territory, we become different somehow. I get butterflies when I hear from you and when I don’t. I’m excited about fresh discoveries about you and how it’ll feel for the two of us now that we’ve opened that door.

I spent time getting closer to you last night and feel good about it. I enjoyed our shared touch and kissing you for the first time. Our approach was unique for me since we were slow, easy, and present.

I’m used to a guy coming at me with all hands groping and tongue down my throat. I’m accustomed to an intense rush of sexual energy that feels unstoppable. And there’s always an end goal of having intercourse. It rarely occurred to me that we don’t need to have a goal. What if we enjoyed each pleasurable moment?

There’s nothing wrong with heightened passion when both of us are open to it. But I like even more that, on this occasion, we relaxed into each other’s arms, sweet and tender, without expectations of anything else.

You may not know the importance of kissing you. Kissing is an immensely powerful way to communicate my feelings for a person. I consider it the most intimate of all touching between two humans. Kissing you made me feel closer to you. That’s why I like it so much.

Allowing a kiss between us made it easier for me to remember we’re connected even when we’re apart. And I know that it’s inevitable, so I hold that sacred moment as if time stopped the moment our lips met.

Because I’m leaving town, and we’ll soon be connected only from a distance, I’m eager to eat up a little more time with you than I would if we had unlimited time.

But I know that I’ll see you again. And maybe then you’ll let me kiss you longer. I hope you notice I’m inviting you inside my heart. You’re welcome there anytime, no matter where we are on the planet. And don’t think I didn’t notice you letting me take a peek into yours. Thank you.

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