Poetry
Trapped Somewhere
Home Grown Despair


Dancing with myself Just for me Nobody else
Put on my sneakers Using the beat of music speaker's
Into the night she goes Ebbs and flows
Debt increases Grows
Looking everyday for another bill How will I pay God’s Will
I miss the days of old When I was innocent No story to be told
When all I saw was hope Clean innocence A fresh bar of soap
The smell of lavender and vanilla fills the room It’s the familiarity that I lose myself in, I assume
Listening to love songs Smiling like a dope God was all around me I was exactly who I was meant to be
When the chaos of cocaine took over I didn’t spend one minute sober One rehab finished with that
Call my drug dealer as soon as I get out On to second rehab “ I’m back” I shout
Story gets worse as most of you know Heroin is a monster compared to blow
This pretty girl with needle marks up and down her arm Yet nobody sees me I’m doing bodily harm
Not just smack either
Adderall, Blow, Xanax, Valium, OxyContin Wasn’t with it all that often
Driving a Mercedes At 20yrs old Pretty soon that would have been sold Only 8 more rehabs to go
God intervened I still didn’t listen I’m losing myself Losing Solomon’s wisdom
God never gave up on me I held on too I’m ten years sober Roger that, copy, over
Life is much different now Humbled when I took my marriage vow
My dad stopped funding the scam I was running It took some time to become who I am today I live my life in a very simplistic way
God takes care of all of the rest I truly am beyond blessed Praise Jesus
Thank you so much for reading. I believe that love is the higher law. Through carrying each other we become sisters and brothers. Let’s stop the hate. Let’s choose to love one another.
I would like to thank Annelise Lords for bringing hope back into my soul with her kindness and writing. I will be attaching some of her works below. God bless you. Forever Grateful.
Annelise Lords (shining through the ILLUMINATION Publication):
Kira Dawn a.k.a.✨The Gorgeous Mess✨October 15, 2021✨All Rights Reserved✨
