The Statue That Looked More Human Than I Felt

Notes from my daily photography experiments #5

Today I felt frozen, in one continual state. Unmoving. I didn't want to be here today. I felt the memory of old hurt, old pain. And the goals and dreams that I felt that I had left untouched.

As I placed this tiny statue on the ground in my yard, I marveled at how a figurine can look more at peace without blood and bones, than me, a real living person. I felt a constant stirring, an uneasiness today. Which was compounded by the wrath of 34 mosquitos biting at my ankles and at my neck.

I held the little figure and juggled it a little bit in my hand. How could I come back to myself? Where I didn’t worry each day, where I could feel happy, and I didn’t have the fate of the future grapple to me each day with metallic grip.

Who is the I? Who do I want to be? What are the places that are missing in my life?

It is indeed a shame, that we are not immortal beings. I definitely need more time to figure this out.

Technical Comments:

Lens: 16–80mm Shutter speed: 125 F Stop: 5 ISO 400

DAILY PHOTO EXPERIMENTS: Day 1: A Week of Mimicking Flowers Day 2: The Optimism of a Watermelon Day 3: The White Flowers That Danced Before The Night Sky Day 4: A Celebration of Procrastination Day 5: The Statue That Looked More Human Than I Felt Day 6: Today I Made A Tree