Seeing And Trying
A poem to ponder on the place where inner strength lies
trying to accept trying to let go trying to surrender all trying becomes avoidance
avoidance of the state prior to which I jump towards trying avoidance is never based on genuine strength avoidance never let open the space for real strength
do I need to exercise the fake strength with which I try? which is not genuine strength for sure and hence not worth striving for or exercising while true strength must lie in the space before I begin to exercise my fake strength that is, to just see the state I find myself to be and let it be — opening up the space for genuine inner strength
when I ain’t relying on fake strength that is, not putting all the money on ego-strength I get to see if there is a real inner strength which isn’t conditional or avoidance-based this does not mean the tendency to try stops but when I am seeing it I ain’t hijacked by it
the thinking-mind had become a tool for avoidance when I am lost in thinking-mind to do the work for me I had missed a moment to cultivate real strength but when I see it I am freed from its hold
so when I ain’t lost in fake strength then this must be the place where inner strength lies which is more of a ‘spacing’ than doing
{ perhaps, this isn’t to say ego-strength is bad but it cannot make up for the real strength we cannot excuse ourselves from doing the inner work for we got the ego tactics to cover up for the inability one needs to choose what strength is worth cultivating for their own sanity and mental health and society does not favor inner strength the individual is faced with what to choose and what is worth in the long run. }
When I am experiencing some sort of discomfort then I do not have to look elsewhere, I just have to see that I am already in the best possible place for cultivating any possible inner strength. I just have to have the sense or patience or willingness to let it be.






