Meeting My Kundalini Energy for The First Time

Ayahuasca & Kundalini

At the beginning of 2017, I decided to take part in an Ayahuasca journey. At the time, I had already quit my 9–5 job, and just before that, I had finished my first 200 TTC (Yoga Teacher Course with 200 hours in Primary Ashtanga Yoga in Thailand).

The last weeks and months I spent researching everything that I could find about Ayahuasca and DMT. After a documentary on Netflix about DMT (sorry, forget the name of it), I felt prepared enough to do it. It was time.

My intention at the time was to repair the relationship with my mother, but I received answers that I didn’t expect at all. But that’s another story.

After the initial ceremony, including cleansing with sage and chanting, we all sat down on our mattresses aligned in a big circle. Now, everybody was served the first round of this powerful shamanic brew: Ayahuasca. I thought it didn’t taste so bad. It reminded me somehow of very bitter beer, but kind of a tasty beer. Others didn’t share my taste buds and had a hard time drinking it.

So there I was, sitting on my mattress with a bucket and some tissues in front of me, drinking my first of a total of three rounds of Ayahuasca. Next followed a chakra meditation. We started at the root chakra: Muladhara. When we reached the throat chakra, Vishudda, many people in the circle started to throw up. I also felt it, but I was too caught up in my ego and really didn’t want to show my ugly and weak side to the world by throwing up in front of everybody, so I held it in. I think I would have felt much better having been able to throw up, but at this stage of my journey, I was just not ready. The journey went on.

I was still sitting in my meditation seat, while others were slowly lying down.

And then this moment came where I met my inner snake: Kundalini was rising.

First, I felt a slight movement in my root chakra (Muladhara), like something was awakening. I had no idea that this would happen. I felt a bit afraid in this moment because of this very new sensation in my body, but I received a very clear message:

‘I am kind and gentle, I will not hurt you.’ — Kundalini

There was no voice in my head saying that; it was more like a message that reached me. Weird to explain in this reality. I tried to be more relaxed, and this gentle, kind snake in my body made its way up with slow S-movements until it reached the area of my heart chakra, stopped there, and disappeared again. I am not sure how long this process lasted, as time is a slippery thing, especially during psychedelic journeys, but I guess it might have been about 5 minutes.

Even if it was a bit scary in the beginning, feeling my own Kundalini energy was beautiful. Until that point, I had only learned about it in theory, and, to be honest, I had my doubts about how real this might be. I thought it was maybe more of a metaphor, but when I felt this sensation in my body, I started to understand that our body is so much more and can do so much more. The Kundalini energy is a kind energy but can be used as a weapon of energy. I am still figuring it out.

I believe that my heart chakra was very closed up at the time. I did Ayahuasca for the first time and was very much at the start of my inner journey. My Kundalini snake had to stop around my heart chakra (Anahata) because there was simply no passage through.

Later, I had one more round of the Ayahuasca brew, but I skipped the third one because I felt that it was enough for the first time. Our guides told us beforehand that everyone is different; some will only need one cup, others three. I had two, and that was fine. During my Ayahuasca trip, I experienced a rebirth, and tears were streaming down my face, but I was not sad; it felt cleansing.

I experienced a wonderful Ayahuasca trip and felt unconditional love for the first time and I met my inner snake: Kundalini

Remember that I couldn’t throw up in the beginning? Shamanic plant medicine always finds a way to do what it is supposed to do. Towards the end of my psychedelic journey, when I came back into my body, I had to go to the toilet a couple of times. My cleansing process ended with a few sessions on the toilet, and it felt great. lol

I haven’t had a second Ayahuasca trip since. I focused on becoming a parent in the last years and didn’t feel that the time was right for a second round. Becoming a parent and going through the birth experience felt like a whole psychedelic trip in itself. Giving birth to my children changed me. Now it is 2024, and I feel that I’m getting closer and closer to my next Ayahuasca event. Maybe not this year but latest probably next year. My kids are 3 and 5 now. I think when they are about 4 and 6 years old, it is okay for me to be away for one weekend. Until now, we spent 24/7 together, and I am very grateful for all this time together and wouldn’t want to have it any other way.

I did a lot of inner work combined with meditation and microdosing in the last years. I found a lot of plant medicines like Haritaki; I changed my lifestyle and diet completely. I smoked DMT out of a pipe and had an OBE (out-of-the-body experience). Everything changed. I believe that my chakras are open now or at least much more open than ever before.

I am already excited about my next journey with Mother Ayahuasca, and yes, a bit scared too, but fear is a good indicator of what we still have to conquer when it comes to inner growth and self-development.

I love traveling, but the best journeys that I had were journeys into my mind, connecting with the universe and communicating with entities. It is a world full of magic, and I believe that this magic can also exist in our world.

Mother Ayahuasca is one of the most gentle plant teachers that you can choose from. She is gentle, kind, and profoundly healing. Every plant teacher is very different.

Ayahuasca will always be one of my absolute favourites because of the unconditional love that I was allowed to experience and the feeling of being reborn, without all the sadness and anger that held me back for so long in my life.

It is as if Ayahuasca lifted a heavy burden from my heart and helped to heal my mind and body.

Without this one Ayahuasca weekend, I would not be where I am today, and that would be okay too. But I am very grateful that I stepped over my fear and dared to take part in this life-changing shamanic weekend with this healing medicine. My life feels lighter and more fun than ever before.

I am hoping to meet my inner snake during my next Ayahuasca trip again, and this time, I hope that I will be able to let the Kundalini energy rise. But even if not, it is okay. I am on my way.

Feel loved, feel hugged.

Namasté

Your Alina

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