Little Time Offs
To let time pass without my effort
to take some time offs only little not too much — unless when luck strikes — but maybe frequently throughout the day whenever thought-feelings arise those bite me in the ass — actually in the chest — almost every single time when I finally give in to suppression; instead, a little time off to let time pass with those very thought-feelings; being okay with not knowing what to do with it; being okay with giving up any need to solve or control or impose rules or tricks; to simply sit and suck up all the energy behind those suppressed pain felt in my chest and shoulders; but not for any final results no ideal feelings to find just to let time pass; a timer might help also, I need to move my ass towards where I can sit without flinching into distractions; I can forget I even exist to solve anything at all during those little time offs; I can even forget time even exists for me to do anything during those little time offs; if I interfere one thing is sure it’s a waste of time; not that the lazy mind would just give away so easily for the benefit of the living organism; I can interfere and fuck up as much as I want after that little time off.
“Muddy water is best cleared by leaving it alone.” — Alan Watts
“That which does not kill us, makes us stronger.” — Friedrich Nietzsche






