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Love and Romance

I Refuse to Be Consumed — Pt.5

And I don’t know what to do

Photo by Benjamin Balázs on Unsplash

I don’t know what to do

Today, it’s official— she’s a taken woman. I have to believe it; this can’t be a game.

She tells me she’s happy, that my declarations of love confuse her. Does this mean I keep on? The system is beyond my understanding.

I don’t know what to do.

She still asks me to speak sweetly to her, and I’m confused.

I have never dated, only once found myself in a two year relationship; that was almost a decade ago.

Romance comes naturally to me, now I’m afraid to manipulate.

But isn’t this what she wants of me???

I don’t know what to do!!

I took too long re-adopting the mindset for courtship; mistreating her had summoned another suitor, and now I must live with the consequences, or behave against my better judgment.

We are too much alike, except for I have long stopped playing games, if ever I did play as I claim.

In all cases, she is perfection.

And I don’t know what to do—

Fuck.

I don’t know what to do.

Next in the series—

Or, from the start —

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