A quick read.
I Failed My 30-Day Challenge
To Complete My Nursing Degree
I have officially graduated! There is one final state exam standing in my way of becoming a registered nurse. OK, so I failed my 30-day challenge. I’m not going to fuss over it. I am still working my way through it, but I’m no longer going to rush it.
Quality over quantity.
In the beginning, I was keeping up with it all. I had a few challenges written in advance and it actually seemed doable. However, as exams, assignments, and compulsory online activities began to pile up, the 30-day challenge didn’t seem to matter anymore.
I started slamming out random posts without feeling.
I no longer enjoyed it and I didn’t even like what I was writing. How did I expect others to read it? I ended up getting my priorities straight and taking a month from Medium to put my focus on study.
Study, study, study!
I’m still studying. Completing my challenge is important (I am determined), but passing this exam is paramount. 3.5 years of hard work, dedication, blood sweat and tears, have all been for this one moment.
“Look, if you had one shot or one opportunity, to seize everything you ever wanted in one moment. Would you capture it, or just let it slip? Yo” — Eminem (Lose Yourself).
So this is my life at the moment. Study, study, study! I really look forward to not being a student. But in reality, do we ever stop? I’ve probably got another 10 years of part-time postgraduate study to reach my goal of becoming a nurse practitioner. But even then, we never stop learning. I’ll never forget the nurse nearing retirement tell me, “even to this day I’m still learning!”. You gotta love life.
Life.
On top of studying and writing, life goes on. Family time, eating, nourishing my soul, and spending time with my darling have taken over my desire to write 30 crap pieces in 30 days. Living my life is important too.
Mental health.
Starting (and desperately completing) a 30-day challenge will drive anyone to insanity. Maybe I was already insane?
Maybe starting such an idea is proof of insanity from the beginning.
Regardless of that, giving up on this challenge felt like freedom — it didn’t feel like a failure. I knew it was the best thing to do at the time. I’m proud of what I managed to complete and I’m excited to finish it off when I am in the right mental space. At my own luxury, at my own speed.
Conclusion.
Well, I failed and I succeeded. I got my priorities straight and focused on taking my “one moment” — I’m studying, living life, and feeling better for it. Now I’m off to study!
Thank you kindly for reading. Happy living!
Check out my partially completed 30-day challenge, here.
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