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Ego Death & Living on Earth as a Twin Soul: Part 1 — What Am I Learning?

As I advance on this journey as a twin soul, here are some things I have learned that have helped me reach bliss and progress toward energetic union.

This is Part 1 of my memoir: Ego Death & Living on Earth as a Twin Soul. I initially shared a piece I wrote titled Not A Love Story: Finally Meeting the ONE and Letting Him Go, which is the prequel to this memoir and talks about my soul recognition/meeting my mirror soul.

After my twin ghosted me, officially spurring our separation on Friday the 13th of October (talk about unlucky!!), I went through my Dark Night of the Soul (DNOTS)/Soul Shock. This lasted about 6–8 weeks, during which I asked the universe for clarity and help understanding what the heck was happening to me.

This is when my learning really began, and I was guided to relevant content online — that I could relate to, and actually made sense of what I was going through…thus realizing I was on a Twin Flame journey and not just having a complete mental breakdown (which is one in the same, really)!

Learning from others about their experiences on the insane journey brought me comfort and understanding, as well as helped me not feel so alone. The information came to me through social media, websites, blogs, etc. And while there is no shortage of information online, it is important to note that not everything you read and learn about will resonate with you and your journey.

Each pair of twin’s journey is unique, although they do follow similar stages.

The main thing I learned (and I resisted accepting this at first) is that it really is all just me and about my awakening, healing, and ascension.

This happened to me, yes, there is no denying that. And yes, initially, it was triggered by another person. And while the entire journey will always continue to be, essentially, driven and supported by the connection, to that person, it is no longer about them specifically or physically, and I understand that now.

We are spiritual warriors whom chose this experience. To be born as twin flames in this life, with the mission of raising Earth’s vibrations through our healing and unconditional love — during this important time of Earth’s ascension.

And the magic is, just by meeting our twin and having our soul recognition, we have been activated, because our soul was ready for it.

Once we are activated and our kundalini is awakened, we begin being upgraded and living our true purpose, working on our mission, independently AND energetically together with our twin!

By accepting that you are ONE, and that all you can truly control is being present in the now — you release any expectations (which are ego-driven), and then you will ultimately surrender to your divine plan and timing.

You don’t necessarily have to lose sight of your highest timeline, union, and physical reunion — if you are in no contact separation, like me. But once activated, this journey becomes our own, and soul-ly and wholly (and holy!) about you!

I can’t tell you how many times I have had to tell my ego to shut the f up when the mind chatter starts and the memories of the ‘good ole days’ start flooding in, piercing my heart with pain. Or the dreams of the perfect future that could only be if — blah, blah, blah. That is the EGO and only the ego!

It isn’t always easy to recognize, stop and step away from those thoughts and feelings, and remind yourself to be present again. But it is so worth it to be free and not dwell on the what was, and what ifs.

Those are ego-driven thoughts, and this journey is about letting go of that darn ego and taking back control of yourself and how you choose to live, and love your life.

I know that the work I have been doing is working! Feelings that I had in the beginning of this journey are SO far behind me now — and I honestly never thought I could shake them and get to where I am today. I am so grateful!

But this relief came with work, and it is continuous!

Sure, I get waves of emotions, heartache, and tears that flush over me, and I transmute daily, but it is nothing like how I felt initially — that intense, obsessive, magnetic yearning, energy pull. Painful most times as it felt like my heart and soul were being ripped from my body.

I know that I have a long way to go and some days are harder than others, but just to give you my timeline: I had my soul recognition about 4 months ago. My DNOTS about 2 months after that, then I started my path to surrender and working on my ego death, which has been an active part of my life since; with real relief finally coming about a little less than a month ago. But honestly, time on this journey doesn’t seem to flow like “regular” time. These have been the longest, craziest, and most challenging months of my life.

Some days, I really struggled with maintaining my full-time office job, being a good mother to my daughter, a good wife to my husband — all while honoring my soul as I purged years of blocked low vibrational energies that were stored inside me and weighing me down.

But it is no joke — the only way to get past that intense magnetic obsessive chasing flame energy is to ascend and work on yourself, your healing, remembering who you are, and trusting the universe and your soul’s divine plan.

And by doing that — not only do you feel better, and not just better, but new and improved. Upgraded!! But you are also simultaneously healing your twin! So it is a win-win all around. Woot!

And besides, it is not like you have a choice. There is no fighting it. Once you have been activated, the only way forward is to accept your fate, surrender to the universe and God’s divine timing, and the divine plan that you and your twin created before incarnating — and to learn to love yourself fully by being present and letting go of your ego mind.

Today, I am usually at bliss and am embracing each moment of my life on this journey. I work on reminding myself that I am not my ego and to be present and focus on ways that I can keep my energetic vibrations high.

In Part 2 of my memoir, I share what I have been doing on this journey, to help me to reach bliss and advance toward energetic union.

Thank you for your time and allowing me to share my writing. I look forward to continuing this journey with you.

Love & Light, Gem ♊✨