Day 9: Depression And Dependence Pain
Starting to let go and understand…

Update, May 8, 2022: It’s come to my unfortunate attention that my X has many narcissistic traits. I encourage anyone that is going through a weird and painful relationship to please research narcissism.
No one told me about this and I was clueless. 4 years later I know about narcissism but am paying the very painful price for having dated one. Below are some links for you to learn from. Very helpful and informative.
Narcissist Questions/Answers. / Narcissist Video Help
Breaking up with someone you loved very much is not easy.
You question it back and forth until you’re dizzy.
You want your girl back though you know she has problems too.
It seems your life may never be happy again.
I’ve been in contact with a few girls, in the last few days, and it has been positive.
Made me feel like I was still alive and not the bad guy my X made me out to be.
I am meditating a little bit everyday but really need to get into it more.
I am getting more involved with my music and have several shows coming up.
I question why I ever met my X?
I question why we got along and dated for 4 years?
I question why she couldn’t embrace my flaws like I did hers?
Questions everyone probably asks?
peace,
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