ANGER ISSUES

Anger Is Not Worth It

Calm people are the most dangerous ones

Pamela Oglesby asks, “Do you get angry easily, or what makes you mad?”

One thing that I learned over the years is that people judge you a lot based on the side that you show them the most. Humans are complex beings, though, and we have so many sides to us.

In my case, it is a bit different because of the polarization of my personality. I’m extremely chill in my normal state. You won’t get any flashy and loud display of my feelings, but deep down, I’m a passionate man.

Therefore, anger hits me hard. I swear on my parents that I never hurt anyone who did not deserve it, but there were a couple of times I was so angry that it turned into violence.

All of those times involved me protecting myself, sticking in for my friends, being bullied, or being disrespected (spit in the face is one example). Disrespect will usually make me lose my mind.

Everyone who knows me and has seen me angry and violent has looked at me with different eyes. The contrast is that big between my regular self and my angry self.

My worst fear is that people will assume my normal self is fake. It is not. That’s who I want to be, and that’s who I am. I have no ulterior motive to trick people into thinking I’m nice and kind.

I’m not Jesus. I can’t help myself. When I’m angry, I get into a berserk state. I’m so pumped with adrenaline, which is quite scary, to be honest. If someone tries to hurt me, I’m more scared of what I might do to them than what they might do to me.

But I can control myself. I don’t have angry issues. When it comes to everything in my life, my self-control is something that I take great pride in. I don’t lose my shit over stupid things, and it takes a LOT to anger me.

I don’t think anyone can say they’re truly strong if they can’t control themselves. And I don’t believe in fear or violence as a means to make people give you what you want.

Fear and violence will get you as far as your dominance will last. When you’re down, everyone will come to kick you. Nothing forced will last forever.

Love, gratitude, respect, and soft power brought me not only peace of mind but great results in dealing with people. I want people to love me, not fear me, after all.

Also, I’m a big softie with the people I love. No matter what they do, that won’t make me lose my shit. But they will lose my love, though. There are things I won’t forgive.

November Prompt #16

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