A Lesson in Spiritual Decoding
Two weeks ago I had the most unpleasant experience. I was at my local spot, a restaurant/bar that I love and I love the staff. Some guy I did not know and his date sat next to me. He started chatting with me and my guard was down. I should have read his bad energy but I was in my comfort zone. He said he was from Hampstead NH, which is where Lindsey is buried. I said to him that’s where my girlfriend is buried. He asks me her name and proceeds to shit all over me and my relationship with Lindsey saying he knew (which was probably a lie) her and no way in any way was she my girlfriend except in the figment of my crazy imagination. I quietly and then loudly called him every name in the book as he pressed and pressed. If I had realized I had a bottle of wine in my bag I might have cracked him over the head with it. When he did not care what an ass hole he was being I had no choice but to sit there and take it, or leave, but that satisfaction I would not give him.
I started wondering then what was the life lesson in this--why had the universe put that asshole in my path. For a while, I thought it was simply a message to spend less time there. I discerned the true message yesterday in the shower. It was to prepare me for the negative reactions to my truths that I will reveal,
and to my opinions that flow therefrom.
NON-EXPLOITATIVE transactional sex between consenting adults should not only be destigmatized, it should be decriminalized.
Is substance abuse a personal failure of willpower or a disease that deserves medical treatment — the answer does not matter. The problem affects all of society so society must stop the binary assignment-of-blame-approach and simply accept that the problem affects millions of people touching the lives of all and costs society hundreds of billions of dollars annually. Substance abusers have the ultimate accountability for their actions and a duty to do what they can to recover. Society needs to do its part to understand addiction, remove the stigma, and make proper care affordable not only for addiction but for mental health generally. 12-step programs and rehabs are salves between relapses. A new paradigm is required. Until we destigmatize substance abuse, the cycle of failure will never end.
Any discussion of suicide requires extreme caution. The specter of suicide has touched the lives of many and haunts both the living and the dearly departed. Thus, I state at the outset, if you start to read my story, please read it all the way through so that you do not lose sight of nor take anything out of context. This story does not glorify suicide. It abhors it and my intent and purpose are suicide awareness and prevention.
Thank you Lady Foxx, Janice Arenofsky, Dr Mehmet Yildiz, ILLUMINATION, Holly Kellums, Anthi Psomiadou, 𝘋𝘪𝘢𝘯𝘢 𝘊., Jean Carfantan, Ane, Melanie J., Claire Kelly, Keri Mangis and others for helping me to grow spiritually and as a writer.
Extra special thanks to Esther George for being the best mentee and best friend I could ever have hoped for and only the universe knows what the future may hold.
In Rama I create,