Trans Journey Day 118: Police trauma! Another trigger provides clarity.
I’m writing a full article on this — more to come.
Short version: Officers respond to an emergency call and get the address wrong!
3:30am: Woken by torchlight through the window where I am sleeping!
I reacted differently than I would have pre-T.
I was disproportionately pissed!
Some emotional baggage turned up and unpack I did. Here’s the gist:
- I thought I was ‘afraid’ of authority due to fear of ‘getting in trouble
- I realized it’s really that I EXPECT authority to blame and shame me when I’ve done nothing wrong
It’s NOT FEAR — It’s a LACK OF TRUST!
Authority figures have proven themselves unworthy of my trust time and time again.
My therapist will have fun with this one next week!
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