To Lily
A message to the best friend that I lost

How are you, Lily?
I’ve missed you dearly since the last time we talked, as it’s been nearly 7 years since then. I’ve almost forgotten you, but this will ensure I never forget.
I don’t know where you are, where you’ve been, or how you’re doing. That’s understandable, considering I had no way of keeping in touch with you, despite the promises we made to do so as kids.
I don’t even know how to address you other than best friend, because we never got the chance to discover where we could have gone together, what we could have accomplished together.
A missed opportunity is not ideal, but it gave us a chance to find new possibilities in other friends, and I’m happy with where I am today.
That being said, what if?
I met you in first grade, and from that day I knew we would get along. Get along we did, and I can’t remember a moment of those years that you weren’t there. It was the simplest things that made you smile, and I loved that about you.
It’s just crazy to think that if you had stayed, my life would have been so different. If you had stayed, my best friend never would have left me, and who knows where we would be together now.
If you had stayed.
I distinctly remember one memory of us, when we were spelling our names backwards. Why that one memory is stuck in my head, I have no clue, but it serves a purpose as one of the few vivid memories I have left of us. Perhaps it was just further evidence that we were able to share happiness over the simplest of things, and attraction came easy to us.
I know that it’s been quite some time since the last time we’ve talked, but I’d just like some closure before I close this chapter of my life. I know that it’s easy to wish for things that we can’t have, but maybe one day we’ll find each other again. Maybe I already have met you again, it’s just been so long we were distant strangers to each other.
If we do never talk again, I guess writing this letter to you will have to be as close to closure as I can get.
Farewell, Ylil.
