These Are The Kinds of Things I Think About When I Think About Divorce
A late-night list from a restless mind

These are the kinds of things I think about
When I think about divorce
The blue Moroccan bowl you helped me haggle for in Fez
The dishes in the sink
Our son’s LEGO sets, labeled and stacked in plastic crates
A messy coat rack
Playgrounds in Copenhagen
Anais Mitchell in a tiny theater
A homemade coffee mug with Father of Barnaby sketched in my amateur Arabic
Piles of socks to fold
All the forms at the doctor’s office
The kite shoved in the back of our car that we flew with our boys when we had nothing else to do
The fabric of the seats on the New Jersey Transit
Rows on airplanes
My tank top with the pink thread sewn in it from the woman who did our laundry in Quito
Red Haribo gummy cherries
Shoveling the sidewalk when it snows
The Muslim call to prayer
Those tiny fish that nibbled the skin on your toes in a street market in Siem Reap
Olive oil soap
Monster chase on playground equipment on a Saturday afternoon
And that time I announced that you’d become my home
In a room full of people we barely talk to now
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