The Weight Of Expectation
It can be suffocating at times
Sometimes I need some time to myself, to get away, even for just a few minutes, to take in the air and breath, just doing nothing but breathing and looking at my surroundings.
As a dad to three children and a wife to look after, a business to run, two publications to feed.
Whilst I also have a home to modernise, I bought a house with every room needing to be changed and or decorated; we all like a challenge!
Like most men, I can bottle things up, and especially when it comes to pressure, I don’t like to admit I need help; for me, it is a sign of weakness; blame my dad for drilling that into me.
Ironically, my mother owned businesses, my dad worked in a physical job, and my mother had the brains, so they were a perfect match of brains and brawn.
We all have pressure in life; some pressure is healthy, I would say, but pushed too far; of course, it can lead to problems, thankfully it is more recognised today, and people are more open about it.
Working 60–70 hours a week in my day job, then supporting my family, with any free time is taken up by editing and writing on Medium. At times, I feel a bit suffocated and need to be on my own.
It is just something that I cannot have, apart from the car journey to and from work. I feel very fortunate to have people who need me; the alternative must be worse.
With having the weight of expectation on my shoulders, being the “go-to man” at home, at work and on Medium can take its toll, so I am looking for a release but cannot seem to find one.
I did write an article about holding myself accountable and have started to work towards my second quarterly goal, which was to leave work earlier and spend more time at home.
Today I left work at 5 pm rather than 8 pm, and I feel so much better about it, although I know my workload will still be there when I return.
What do you do to relax your mind? Let me know in the comments section, and if I could pay for a “spa break” for my mind, I would buy it.
Written by Robert Ralph
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