The Truth about Someone Who Feels Everything
The one they call overly sensitive or too emotional
I’m a cancer. I’m an individual who slightly believes in star signs because it helps me to better understand someone's personality. Honestly, reading about star signs does really help you to gain a better perspective about someone.
A cancer is ruled by the moon and we are also a water sign, which explains why I am in love with the ocean and how my emotions conquer my life. A cancer is highly sensitive, intuitive and emotional. As a cancer, our major weakness is also being really moody and a major downer are our mood swings.
Emotions and mood swings are something I get affected by a lot. Most people don’t understand it. When I’m with my friends, I’m always carefree and jolly. When I’m in the comfort of my home I enjoy the silence and being able to relax. I’m an individual known for having a resting-bitch face. So even when I’m perfectly well and happy I could look like an angry bitch, which I’m not. You just need to get to know me.
We are the crab, with its hard exterior and soft interior. Probably explains my resting bitch face. My defence will always be up before I meet people, which I’m fully aware deters a lot of people away. Which I’m also completely okay with.
Being a cancer also has it’s curse. The curse is for being an excruciatingly sensitive individual. I feel EVERYTHING sooooo intensely when my guards are down. This is the main reason my resting bitch face is on and why I hardly ever let people in.
You may find it hard to say goodbye to someone but for someone like me. It feels like my heart, soul and every piece of me has been abruptly ripped from my very being and I’m gasping for air (even when I know it’s about to happen). The feeling of no matter how hard I’m reaching out for the much-needed oxygen, it always seems to be out of reach.
I learnt how painful it is to say goodbye after my first crush, then my first longest relationship, then the one that hit me the hardest. My grandmother’s passing. She was like a second mother to me. It will be 2 years on 21st July 2021, since she left us. Left me. I got to spend the last few moments with her.
I was with her until her very last breath. The moment she took her last breath I felt my heart stopped beating, I was speechless, I couldn’t breathe, my windpipe closed up and I felt like it was the end of everything. I still tear up every time the thought of her come to mind. I know that everything will never be the same without her. I love her so much it is immeasurable and I will forever remember her until my very last breath.
When you feel everything so intensely it is terrifying and addictive. When I really like someone I will always slowly ease myself in and test the water before diving in headfirst.
Breakups and goodbyes for me are not a walk in the park and I have always avoided up at all costs. Okay. It’s not easy for everyone, but it actually kills a piece of us for people like cancer. It generously feels like a piece of you dies, this may sound dramatic for most and you can call us drama kings/queens,but if you know how it feels you’ll understand the pain.
The pain is so unbelievable that people who have never experience a loss will never understand. I’m sure the majority of people have lost something or someone in life, which leaves you feeling the pain I do.
Final thought
If you’re someone who feels everything so intensely and you get emotional when you watch Marley and Me or E.T. I want you to know that it is okay. We are all different and some of us just feel more than others.
We are not broken. There will be someone out there who understands us. Someone who will love us for who we are, and someone who will make the time in their day even when there is none.
We are beautiful and we are amazing. Being emotional and sensitive is not a flaw, it’s a gift. When you can really understand people on an emotional level you gain a better understanding of who that person is, which is more than I can say for all the other people they have met.
You will feel more connected to them, even though you are putting yourself at risk of hurting yourself. You will leave a mark on them and you’ll never be forgotten.
The best way for me to deal with my emotional side is to let everything in. Feel the pain. Feel the anger. Feel the hatred. Feel the love. Feel everything and simply let it go. Cry it out.
