The Merlin in Me is Tired of This World

The heavy choices that must be made to forge a life in this thoughtform reality.

White heat and Light radiate inside my body, yearning to be released.

I have touched the stars of 6th density — everything pales in comparison.

It is a solitary reality but for the love of my cat. Matching vibrations, or at least compatible ones, to let close to you are few indeed.

Even though Sara, my cat, is an uncomplicated Consciousness, she intuitively knows when I need her and is often in my dreams with me. Sara is close to the end of her life and must soon be set free.

The Merlin in me is calling, and I am conflicted with what I hear.

Various extraterrestrial groups have offered me choices for my next existence, and the last part of my life now unfolding. I turned them all down.

Now I sit in a silent space often at night with my cat beside me, contemplating the 'Master's Oath' and if I should walk that path.

It is truly a great honor and Oath, but my heart cannot find a way to say 'yes,' at least not now. I touched my 'greatest potential' the day I stood before my Creator in my Star Body. That Avatar body may be a distant potential not yet ripe for me; I do not yet know, so I wait patiently.

I yearn to be free of this world and all the worlds of form — to soar on thoughtforms of glorious beauty and radiant Light. Maybe it's not all forms I wish to abandon, as Avatar bodies are the way for Consciousness to know itself in Intelligent Thoughtform Realities.

Jesus once said, 'for the poor will always be with you, but not always do you have me' Matthew 26:11.

Jesus rebuked his disciples for their lack of true perception of reality. They saw only a limited reality and not through multidimensional Consciousness. The whole of this story is below:

“While Jesus was in Bethany in the home of Simon the Leper, a woman came to Him with an alabaster jar of expensive perfume, which she poured on His head as He reclined at the table.

When the disciples saw this, they were indignant and asked, “Why this waste? This perfume could have been sold at a high price, and the money given to the poor.”

Aware of this, Jesus asked, “Why are you bothering this woman? She has done a beautiful deed to Me. The poor you will always have with you, but you will not always have Me. By pouring this perfume on Me, she has prepared My body for burial. Truly I tell you, wherever this gospel is preached in all the world, what she has done will also be told in memory of her.”

Isn't this story so true today?

It is why I am sometimes weary of this world; people cannot perceive multidimensionally. Instead, they only perceive through limitation, lack, fear, and neediness.

So often, people say, 'I wish I could, but I can't because….' People even post this in my articles and videos. Instead, we should ask, "HOW can I do this action my heart desires? How can I bring about this miracle?

But people are beaten down into tiny lights or struggling sparks seeking sensory distraction from their existence.

The poor, the limited, and the needy will always be with us, but the LIGHT cannot dwell in lower thoughtforms forever and must one day ascend by the law of attraction and vibration.

Water seeks its own level, and what is Light will Live in the Light.

Temporarily the Light moves among us, but it will not stay. As it moves, all Consciousness attracted to this Light will magnetize to it, become it and rise into Higher frequencies. All that is not will continue in the Matrix of limited Consciousness.

Higher extraterrestrials in the 5th- density and beyond live a Light-filled life.

This is why I have always said NO to the extraterrestrials who have asked me to join them on their ships and realities. I no longer wish to dwell among 3rd and 4th-density worlds. Many, though, are addicted to the sensory struggle of pain and the intense emotions of pleasure.

This feeling of my yearning to move beyond this reality is my Merlin struggle at the moment. Merlin lived away from men, in a cave, one with nature. His magical natural gifts created a comfortable home. He would be hidden for decades and only step out occasionally to interact with humans. He was not sleeping or idle, but having mastered "thoughtforms' could work his magic upon the field of reality in quietude.

His fairy friends, nature spirits, and animals as companions. Sometimes I think I could do this and perhaps keep the Master's Oath. But if my last test is a sample of what he wants of me interacting with very difficult situations — I hesitate.

I have already been through so much darkness in this life and now want only a beautiful, peaceful retreat for home. A place to develop more abilities and enjoy a few kindred friends (human, animal, fairy, nature, or alien) whose energy is clear, bright, wise, and stable.

The Master of the Inner Earth Academy would ask of me an Oath I cannot find a way to take at this time; maybe I am not yet advanced enough to see beyond its heavy burdens in the dark unconscious worlds. That thought makes me feel there must yet be something I need to perceive.

At some point, one must think, enough is enough; I remember my Higher Light Body. I have inhabited it and know it to be mine, and it is always calling to me…..