The Calm Place
A Poem
for Art Man, Michael Casperson, Christina Ward 👻, Heidi Franklin, Ryan Fan, Scott Brazieal and Ann E. Jones
I am back and forth to the calm place I cannot stay there long,
cannot rest, cannot sit down, put my feet up have a coffee, cannot believe in it fully; it is like a mirage or hallucination
I find it, I want it, I strive for it, and yet, often, as soon as I get there, I have to leave again.
Something calls, something intrudes, something hurts, something causes pain,
something demands my attention or distraction, something will not let me hold on to the peace, I reach out, reach out,
I try to avoid sinking — sending texts and pleas and asking for rescue, resource, lift up, prayer, someone
to help me hang on and not slip, my friend sends me a video about trauma, about meditation,
I listen, it says calm down, on repeat, it says I am protected, I sit on the floor, exhausted
after the seeking this calm space all day, after joining in the swirl of my thoughts
like riding a dragon not doing the thing where I sit in a boat perhaps, on a hill perhaps, and watch the dragons fly,
peaceful and calm, we have to sit outside, we have to observe, we cannot ride with the thoughts and pains and imaginings,
we have to find the calm place, it has a door, it has an entrance, but we make it harder than it has to be,
we make it complex, we make it painful — we could just walk in, walk through, sit down, relax,
have a glass of water, close our eyes, meditate, and wait, and wait, and see
how long we can stay here and if we have to leave again, we could, perhaps this time,
practice taking something of that calm space with us as a reminder that we have been there, that it is real
that it does exist, that we have achieved it, that we have been through the worst of things so many times
and that we have survived them all to sit here, eyes closed, trying to exist in the calm place again and again.
Jenny Justice is a poet mom who longs to bring poetry to life in ways that spark empathy, connection, joy, and feeling. She loves writing love poems, climate change awareness poems, poems for kids, and of course, poems about poetry and poets. You can follow her on Medium and at Jenny Justice, Writer. You can follow her poetry at Justice Poetic.






