TRANSGENDER
Surrender, But Don’t Give (My)self Away
Reflecting on my transition journey this week
WEEK 58 CHECK-IN:
Trans Life Past: It’s all a bit of the same at this stage of the game. In every aspect of the game, lol.
- Wow, well if that too-short-for-anything sentiment didn’t set up the week, I’ll be a monkey’s buttplug!
- Existence has been a challenge but I’m fiiiiiiiiiine :D
Priorities: 1. Books (Sugar Twink, #DearMoon, Story Bored)
- OMG. All the nope. Yeah, I pretty much fully noped out this week. BUT… I know exactly where I am and what needs to get done to stay on track. I’m still ok!
2. NaNoWriMo
- Wrote the epilogue of Thadeus’ story which was fantastic. So much fun. I really love that storyline.
- I’m changing up my NaNo approach. This whole NaNo Rebel thing of writing random scenes was an experiment and for me, it’s just not working. So, I did a brain-dump overview of what I’d like to get done next year. Again, it’s mostly editing, but there are three books I want to write as a minimum. So, now NaNo has become about talking through THOSE books. Just getting a macro overview of the stories ready to write next year.
3. Medium (post two articles to OTHER pubs)
- Yeah, I didn’t do that. Why? Because I didn’t. Let’s move on.
Other Notes:
- It’s been a mentally and physically difficult week so I didn’t do much because that is what my body and mind demanded. That’s all. Lol. But you can read all about that in the daily journal entries below. Have fun… or something.
T-Day and Beyond Daily Journal:
Day 401 (Sunday): Wrote all the words. Well, not all of them, but so many.
4210 words written today for a total of 15946 so far this NaNoWriMo. Check out the podcast for updates and more about what I’ve been writing.
Hint: It’s part of the extended NUSA universe (sci-fi paranormal) but has a Cupid’s Guide vibe (dark humor urban fantasy), and totally embraces the queerness of First Strike (LGBTQAI+ sports romance).
Day 402 (Monday): Oh boy, do I have an article heading your way soon!
None of this dumping it in drafts and forgetting about it like 100 other articles because this one is time sensitive! An organization here in Australia has rebranded itself.
From homophobic pricks trying to block gay marriage as Marriage Alliance
Newsflash: They failed… hence the rebrand *could my eye roll be any bigger?*
To transphobic assholes trying to stop trans kids from existing as (wait for it…) Binary Australia.
Yep, Binary fucking Australia. The audacity! They even use the trans colors — what the actual fuck? Argument number 1 = sex is binary. Good job! (FACEPALM!)
Day 403 (Tuesday): I’m smangry as fuck — but has it been anxiety all along?
I’m smangry. Smell angry. Yep, smells make me mad. And today, they made me so mad, I thought I was losing my shit. I put a face mask on, and holy crap, it was like a pacifier. As soon as I was limited to only the one smell of the mask, my anxiety and anger began to ease. Is this the real reason I loved wearing masks during covid?
I’ve been getting hayfever and asthma and it kicks up when I smell things. I’ve always had allergies show up as asthma around strong smells like perfumes, but now I’ve learned that anxiety can cause smell sensitivity. Is this a crazy cycle I’ve always been on? Might just be time to stop putting everything down to ‘asthma’ and explore anxiety. Well, fuck!
Day 404 (Wednesday): When the dogs break your eggs, make breakfast omelet slice, or something.
I went to my storage unit to get some things to do some crafting while I’m on these longer sits, picked up my T at the chemist, and then got a few things from the supermarket. I was barely through the door when one of the doggos knocked my bag and broke 7 of the 12 eggs. I have a boiled egg each morning… that went out the window. So I made some random omelety type slice. It has vegies and chicken. It’s a thing. And that is my story for today. Lol.
Day 405 (Thursday): In today’s, “This is why I’m grateful to be in Australia, so can we please keep it this way by keeping the wankers away from political power,” news — Our medical system covers half of my T-gel and I didn’t even know.
I think that is truly amazing that Medicare covers half the cost of HRT. I didn’t expect it at all. But I’m so happy about it. It’s sad that I didn’t expect it, actually. Because most medications are on our Public Phaemarcutical Scheme. My phentermine isn’t so it’s interesting that we are actually further along in equality for medical care for transgender individuals than those who are overweight (but they’d put me under the knife…) but that’s another story, lol. It was just a very nice surprise today. Aussie, Aussie, Aussie :D
On the ‘political’ front, for anyone in Australia who is interested in what our politicians do and do not support, have a look at theyvoteforyou.org.au.
Specifically, you can see which of our politicians support trans rights here:
And it’s interesting to see who supports marriage equality too. As you go further down the page (from support to against), there is a very clear increase in the number of white male-presenting snowflakes. Just sayin’. Also, look at our LAST prime minister consistently voting against marriage equality AND trans rights. I love that I found this page!
** Links are external.
Day 406 (Friday): If my University can ignore sex (and gender), why can’t everyone?
I just downloaded my electronic testamur and transcript from my uni. My uni account has my title as Mx and my gender as ‘Indeterminate/Intersex/Unspecified’. But what I noticed about my OFFICIAL DOCUMENTS is that not one of them even lists my title. There is ZERO indication of my sex/gender on any. Because… it’s not damn necessary! It’s a patriarchal remanent of times when women weren’t equal. We’re over that, right? (yes, I am being intentionally obtuse). Time to move forward. Unless you are my doctor, you don’t need to know what organs I do or don’t have, and unless you are my doctor, or Imma gonna get jiggy with you (unlikely, just sayin’), you don’t need to know what’s going on anywhere in my body, inside, or out.
So kudos to Swinburne University! Sure, I don’t ever plan on flashing my docs for a job or anything, but knowing that I COULD, that if I sent that to an employer, they could NOT judge me based on sex or gender, is *chef’s kiss*. Of course, I don’t know if this is just at one uni, or if it’s a thing across all unis (at least in Australia), but many other organizations could take a real lesson from this.
Day 407 (Saturday): “I stole someone’s identity and it turns out, I should have just kept my own!”
Yep! That’s what they’ll get. So, apparently, my health insurance data has been ‘comprised’ in one of Australia’s current spate of cyberattacks and ransom demands. Awesome. Looking at the data they might get, the worst case scenario is they legit steal my identity. That’s going to be interesting for them to find out they suddenly have a discharged bankruptcy, no permanent place of residence, no utilities (not even an on-plan phone or internet), and they don’t even have a gender. Lol. Who wants to make put this comedy on stage? Hit me up! Lol.
This Week’s Articles:
And on to WEEK 59:
Trans Life Ahead: Take last week, and try again? Lol. But seriously, this week, is really going to be focussed on allowing my characters to take the fuck over. Which basically means, letting go of control! I thought I had. I was wrong. Lol. It’s a whole thing but I feel like T has helped me get to a place now where I CAN trully step the hell out of the way. We’ll see what happens.
Priorities: 1. Embrace the stupid 2. Embrace the voices 3. Embrace the momentum
Dose: 3 Pumps/day (37.5mg)