Self Love & Relationships
Someone to Sit With and Watch the World Burn
I’ve come a long way since “Someone to Watch Over Me”

When I was little, I wanted a different kind of love than what I have now. I thought I wanted someone to watch over me. I thought I needed it. That was before.
I never thought I would get to this place. I didn’t even know this place existed.
The place I am confounds me. It also builds me up and makes me feel worthy. Where is this place?
Well, it isn’t a place exactly. It could be anywhere, but the best I can describe it is a stage in my life where I have seen the impossible possible and can say:
I found a love that doesn’t depend on me needing it.
I wrote these words and I don’t even believe it. Could there be such a thing?
There must be because I wake up every day content in knowing that the person who sleeps beside me will also sit beside me and watch the world burn.
No matter what happens, we.
Of course, if anything happened I would be taken care of without hesitation; I’ve seen it in practice if not in promise. But for the first time in my life, my relationship with another does not depend on my weakness.
We celebrate my strength and resilience together.
That’s not even the best part. The best part is that because our love doesn’t depend on me needing it, I live with the freedom to meet my own needs without fear that meeting them will make me unlovable.
Furthermore, I do not need to meet someone else’s needs in hopes that they will meet mine.
The world may burn in time. I hope not. I hope we can make changes for the better. If not, I am content to sit and watch it with my lover by my side.
I will rest to be consumed beside a lover that isn’t watching over me but being with me as I am with him.
I wish I had known to wish for a love that was so simple.
I’m Brett Jenae Tomlin, The Anxious Enthusiast.
If you love, love, love my writing and want to shout out, “You get it, anxious girl!” You can contribute to my cookbook collection here or join Medium to put your own stamp on the web and the world. I get a little love if you use my link ^^





