Saying Goodbye to Hair Dye: Embracing the Gray

A History of My Hair

It was the time of month when my gray roots began to show. Plus, I had to go to the dentist and could imagine what he would think when he looked down at the top of my head, which was practically in his face.

“This babe really needs to get her roots done.”

But no more! The last time I had my hair dyed was February 2020; lockdown from Coronavirus began in March. Foregoing dye had been something I wanted to do in ten years anyway. While many ran to the hairdresser as soon as they could, I had come this far with growing out my real hair. So I decided to stay gray.

My hair has its own unique history.

Starting in sixth grade, I used lemon juice to get that kissed-by-the-sun look. When Sun-In came to market, I was thrilled. It’s intensity worked faster than lemon juice ever could and you didn’t even have to wait all year for summer.

Fast forward to college: I did henna, an ancient medicinal plant that’s been used as a natural dye for over 4,000 years. The powder is mixed with water and has a “unique” odor. Anyone who came onto the floor in my dorm could tell from the stench that someone was getting their hair henna-d.

In my salad days, aprés-college and early career, I did what everyone did: highlights. It was the easy way to look blonde, without committing to full-blonde.

But the real dye came after my son was born.

While I was still in nursing mode for my first born, my mother said, “Darling, your hair looks sort of mouse-y.”

Mouse-y? Could she have meant mousse-y? I hadn’t been able to wash my hair (let alone shower) for a few days and I did have a lot of mousse on that day.

“Mom, what do you mean?”

“Well, a lot of times after giving birth, a woman will start losing her hair. Other woman’s hair color changes and it looks, well, more brown. Ish. Like yours is getting,” said my mother.

“Maybe she’s right,” I thought in my exhausted state. Box-dye beckoned. I went to the local drugstore and searched for a box with the model wearing brown. But there were so many tones and color levels. When I brought one home and tried doing it myself, it looked horrible.

Result: Mom said she would treat me go to a hair dresser to “fix” it.

Ever since, I’ve been a girl who goes, religiously, to get my hair dyed by a real colorist.

It was enlightening to read “Ditched the Dye During Covid? Maybe Stay Gray” in The New York Times. “Lots of women had to confront their natural hair color when salons were closed or felt unsafe. Now many are sticking with it — — and joyfully.”

For added encouragement, I still turn to the many gray-head groups on Instagram. Some of the hashtags are “graciously gray,” “okaywithgray,” and “gray-ciousme.” There are even ones where you can follow someone on their personal journey, like “nic_went_gray.” (And here, may I take a moment to say “gray” and “grey” is the same, depending on “gray” the more frequent in American English, whereas “grey” is more common in British English.)

I like not having to worry about booking my next appointment five weeks away. I’m no longer plagued with paranoia that my dentist is judging me. I’ve finally embraced my authentic self with grace and style. Amen.

Bonni Brodnick is the author of “My Stroke in the Fast Lane: A Journey to Recovery” and “Pound Ridge Past, now in its second edition. She is an award-winning communications specialist and a member of the Pound Ridge Authors Society. Bonni is also an ambassador for the American Heart Association and a proud Stroke Survivor. Visit me at bonnibrodnick.com for all the news all the time.

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