Reflectionz: A Letter To My Soul
The sacrifice did not happen all at once. No one ever told me that hitting rock bottom isn’t an overnight trip.
Divine Guidance,
I promised myself I’d keep this short, but as I sit down to write these words, the flurry of emotions that rush into my body is too hard to contain. So much has changed since we last communed. So much so, that I now have a hard time facing you, which was once so easy to do. The words I miss you spring to mind, followed by bittersweet memories of the joy I found in times when you were all I had to rely on. You have always been my best friend. I only wish I could say that was the case on my end.
Ironically, when the chaos of Life met me, I was blindsided, and unprepared to handle the disorientation and disillusionment of the life I thought I knew so well. It was childish arrogance, that caused me to fight against the lessons life was aiming to teach me. The strength that you so desperately needed me to see I possessed, most necessary to make it through the tough times that lay ahead. Instead, I bargained for my growth, choosing the safety of immaturity, never truly knowing the cost I would pay for it. And as time went by, I continued to lose sight of what made me who I am…You.
The sacrifice did not happen all at once. No one ever told me that hitting rock bottom isn’t an overnight trip. It happened every time I stumbled downhill but chose not to climb the uphill battle. It became the way I looked at life. The way I spoke to you. It fueled the choices I made day by day, until one day, I looked in the mirror, no longer able to recognize the person looking back at me. I don’t reach as far. I don’t laugh as loud. I don’t dream as big. Unaware of the fact that I was teaching myself how to settle. I began to allow the pain I never addressed, to become the pilot of my life’s decisions. Slowly but surely, I began to lose touch, not only with my authentic self but with the Truth in reality as well.
I’m no stranger to the pain of rejection. Well, you know that already. The world is cold, and humanity can be cruel. I just never thought I’d be the one to turn my back on you. And yet, you remain patient, willing, and ready for me to return to your open arms. Thank you. Because of you, I have learned so much, like, how to self-motivate. Because of you, I have learned how to look deep within. Because of you, I have learned how to see and acknowledge pain in others. And most of all, because of you, I have learned the need for compassion, empathy, holding space, and how to extend those very things to myself.
It is with honor that I can redeem the relationship I hold with you because you have given me a second chance. A chance to find beauty in what is broken. A chance to heal what is wounded. An opportunity to know who I truly am, in the depth of my soul. You have given me a place within my heart to come back to.
I want you to know, I have been lost without your guidance. But in my time away, I have found the promise of tomorrow on the road to redemption. Should I roam again? I shall never forget you are the compass that leads back to my North Star.
Sincerely,
I’m coming home!
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