Summary

The author rediscovers their passion for dance through past-life regression, embracing their inner child and the beauty of movement, leading to a transformative self-realization and a newfound freedom in expression.

Abstract

The author shares a personal journey of self-discovery and healing, guided by their "Word of the Year" - Light. They explore the connection between their childhood belief in beauty and dance, and how these were affected by societal standards and personal experiences. Through the work of past-life regressionist Mira Kelley and a soul portrait by Visionary Artist Kali Ma Shub, the author uncovers past lives where dance was central, including an existence as a dancing flower fairy. This revelation reignites their passion for dance, allowing them to channel healing energies and reclaim their sense of beauty and joy. The author now embraces dance as a form of self-expression and healing, inspiring others to engage with their inner child and find their own spark.

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The author believes in the transformative power of dance as a means to connect with their inner child and past lives.
They express a renewed sense of self-worth and beauty, independent of societal standards and physical appearance.
The author values the synchronicities and breadcrumbs from the Universe, which have led them to explore past lives and parallel realities.
They find Mira Kelley's past-life regression therapy and Kali Ma Shub's soul portrait to be instrumental in their journey of self-discovery.
The author is inspired by the grace and patience of fellow dancer Betty Kang, who teaches them fan-flow dances.
They equate the movement of fan veils in dance to the transmutation of energies and the wings of their past life as a flower fairy.
The author is grateful for the community and connections formed through dance, which contribute to their healing and personal growth.
They encourage others to find their own spark and engage with their inner child, as inspired by Aimée Gramblin's writing prompt.

Once I Was a Dancing Flower Fairy

My inner child speaks to me through dance

This year, I’ve been following the breadcrumbs from the Universe through my Word of the year — Light. As I start to embody my three intentions of Light — being light-hearted, light-footed, and shining my light freely, new magical synchronicities began to appear, leading me to my next breadcrumb.

While unwinding my desire to lose weight, I discovered that somehow I stopped believing I was beautiful because of my sudden weight gain at seven years old. As a child, I’ve never seen fat girls dance without being ridiculed. So I stopped taking dance classes. I stopped feeling beautiful because I stopped dancing.

What a confusing mind pretzel I put myself through!

Now, I can clearly see I’m supposed to be beautiful, regardless of how my body shape is. I don’t feel ugly, but I don’t feel the truth of my beauty yet.

How can I reconnect to the truth of my beauty?

Piecing My Past Lives Into My Greater Truth

“It is in the present where you have the power to reach into both the past and the future, creating the change you desire. “

~ from the book Beyond Past Lives, written by Mira Kelley

Mira Kelley, a sweet attorney-turned-regressionist waltzed into my life with her amazing book that explores past lives and parallel realities.

Another breadcrumb dropped from her Kindle book when I went to the website and bought her guided online past-life regression recordings!

Lying in the comfort of my bed, but feeling really sleepy because it was bedtime then, I let myself be guided by her soothing voice. Though my past life didn’t appear in my mind like a full technicolor movie, I felt a glimpse of it. It was this intense aliveness of dance! This vibrant energy woke up and celebrated itself through all the delicious swirling and spiraling, extending and contracting, moving and transmuting. It was glorious, and I recognized it. I used to embody that energy!

Such a wonderful feeling of Deja Vu. My inner child remembers this constant feeling of dancing, swaying my arms, and twirling around endlessly on the vast stage in my mind. I had forgotten about this magical world inside of me.

The second time I took myself through this same recording, I saw myself as a flower fairy! I was constantly dancing, and transmuting energies through dance. Absolutely nothing else mattered. As a fairy, there were no earthly matters for me to take care of. This never-ending dance was my life. Tears streamed down my face in grateful recognition.

Right after my fairy life ended, I incarnated as a human girl. The heaviness of human life was a stark contrast from the light ethereal feeling of being a fairy. I was a little girl in the outdoors, feeling the calming heavy, wet, and rich soil in between my fingers, as I potted some flowering plants. That little girl could sense her flower fairy friends ever so faintly, with them rejoicing and dancing all around her whenever she was gardening. It gave her so much joy that no one else could rob her of. Her strict father would never know how she danced so intensely in her mind as she spent time with the invisible flower fairies.

I’m Free to Dance Now!

Witnessing those past lives restored this immense passion for dance in me. It brought to mind my awe-inspiring soul portrait and reading, channeled by a gifted Visionary Artist, Kali Ma Shub, in early 2019. Kali Ma told me I could channel healing energies through intuitive movement and singing. It sounded so incredulous to me then, but now I finally see this coming through my dances!

Soul Portrait of the author, painted and photographed by Visionary Artist Kali Ma Shub

Now I understand that I’m free to dance now, physically, not just fantasizing about it the way I used to! Dance has a whole new meaning for me now. I’m finding new ways to play with dance and finding new dance friends who inspire me.

Here’s a little perfectly imperfect flow dance I did this morning at my mom’s neighborhood.

These pretty little custom-made fan veils, shown in my video, have given me so much joy! I first got to know about these intuitive fan-flow dances through a fellow local dancer, Betty Kang. She inspires me so much with her graceful fan-flow dances and is incredibly patient in teaching me the basic moves. She’s my real-life heroine who’s totally grounded in her being.

The way these soft silks move through the air reminds me of the way I used to transmute energies as a dancing flower fairy. They remind me of the wings I used to have. Even now, I believe that I’m channeling some kind of healing energy through dancing intuitively.

Dancing lights me up. My spark burns bright whenever I dance.

I am Light when I dance, and with time, I will learn to see the Light through the dance in my entire life.

I hope that my story inspires you to play with your inner child too!

Thank you, Aimée Gramblin, for inspiring me with your AoE January prompt!

January 2021 Age of Empathy Writing Prompt

What’s your spark?

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