My May Focus

Enough for the chaos. It is time to bring back the order.

I need to take a deep breath. I can’t believe it is already May.

I was a person with a routine — I used to read and write in the morning, I had my meals on time, and I worked out almost every evening.

Somehow, my life crashed into chaos in December 2021 when my mother’s cancer worsened. I lost her in January 2022, and I am still mourning.

I thought grieving was a linear process that involved five stages — denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance. Instead of moving from denial into acceptance, I found myself bouncing back and forth between these stages.

It is already May, and I am sick of this chaotic life. Let’s focus on things that matter.

May’s Focus — Health

I have witnessed how cancer tortured my grandfather and mother, so health is my top priority.

Fitness goal: daily 8000-step walk and work out at least four times a week.

Healthy meal: less salt, less fat.

May’s Focus — Work

2022 is an essential year for my business. I have gotten the franchise status for my company, and it’s time for expansion!

In May, I will have a lot of preparation for the upcoming events in June till September.

Wish me luck!

May’s Focus — Writing

I didn’t write for the past few months compared to when I just started. The slowdown in my writing endeavour is not because of losing motivation or enthusiasm, but because I have other priorities.

First, my mother needed my attention and care, and then I had Covid. Plus, I have been hitting the road for business presentations and opportunities.

I literally don’t have the time to sit and write.

Fortunately, I still keep my daily reading habit, so I haven’t run out of things to write!

Writing goal: write and publish a post every Monday and Thursday.

A Pause Button

I love how May has started. In Malaysia, we celebrate labour day on the 1st, followed by Aidilfitri (Muslim celebration) on the 2nd and 3rd of May, which gives me a few days of holiday.

Instead of using these days to clear my tasks or write stories on Medium, I pressed the pause button.

I allow myself to do nothing. I have spent hours lying on the bed daydreaming, which I won’t in the past.

Today, I have gathered enough courage to go through my mother’s belongings and then spend the evening missing her.

There are three more days to go before going back to work; what should I do next? Meditation is right on top of the list!

“Perhaps you are overvaluing what you don’t have and undervaluing what you do.” ― Jordan B. Peterson, 12 Rules for Life: An Antidote to Chaos

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