Maintaining the Flow of Abundance in a Matrix of Scarcity

Holding onto our emotions rooted in scarcity you shut yourself off from a natural flow

From the moment of conception we are evolving from a state of pure energy into a world of matter. Inside our mothers womb she shares nutrients while providing a vessel for our budding form.

The oasis of care introduces our formlessness into a physical body with a developing nervous system. Synced emotional impulses and peptides of happiness, joy, anger, and sadness, we are open receptive vehicles of energy receiving without constriction.

The waves of emotions are handed down epigenetically and subconsciously either deposited as constrictions within our body (based on the acute perception if an emotion is safe to express) or released back into the universe as continuous energy.

Since our bodies are naturally designed to process emotion, the interaction with our environment is in alignment with a universal source of abundance. For the most part, from birth we have a knowing that our needs will be met and feel only love towards those in our presence.

In childhood we practice physically expressing our emotions and learn through punishment and reward to keep some feelings under control. A lesson in conformity is experienced by many girls when anger is discouraged or punished for being “not nice”, while a boy may be seen as “strong”.

However, for this boy his tears might become ridiculed as his body feels sadness about an event while a girl may be rewarded through a comforting embrace for the same feelings.

I wasn’t aware of how much childhood anger and sadness was held within my body until I began training in mixed martial arts. I had been active in high school wrestling, but now five years post college with little fitness my ballooned figure craved help.

The courage I mustered in joining the academy could barely keep up with rounds of punches and kicks. Then, grappling pushed my limits into unscheduled breaks of vomiting most pre-workout snack of burger and fries. A fear to perform at such a competitive level brought judgment reflected in my coach and teammates.

An experience of my childhood as a husky youth tormented for my physical appearance, unwelcome to play with groups of boys due to ridicule and shame I held over years drove me into extra miles of roadwork and weight training. A drive to aid my husky boy towards accepting to face my repressed anger, and allow the blockages held inside to break free.

The physical pain in my muscles were pushed beyond exhaustion, my lungs burned, and my will to continue tested daily. The months of physical transformation led to another emotional release as the held injustices towards my upbringing came to the forefront.

In a training exercise designed to strengthen a fighters shins through repetitive strikes upon a heavy bags with my shin bones I felt tears of stream down my face as I watched the black bag sway back and forth from a chain. The emotional release found in physical form became exhilarating as I reached inward to my insecure little boy allowing him to experience the thrill of becoming stronger upon this new path.

I gained confidence in sparring with more experienced fighters, and after two years of training I learned to face fear in the ring. Victorious in many matches and some entertaining disqualifications fed my new persona as a fighter. I no longer held anger towards those I trained with, but love in the combative nature of our physical accomplishments. My prospects grew and an opportunity to continue along a more professional path became illuminated for me to follow. However, I did not trust and allow this unforeseen future to unfold.

Fear of scarcity took hold of my body as I attempted to fight this new battle. All I had to do was take time off work for a few days and travel to fight in Canada in my first international professional card. In embracing fear around loss of income and an unforeseeable future I began training less and less. This allowed me to add more clients to my work schedule focusing only financial gains through this source of employment.

I had become afraid of allowing a source of abundance. Only in observing those I trained with at the academy opening schools of their own was I aware of possible outcome of this profession.made I had been blocked by a fear of financial scarcity to proceed and give into a cosmic unknown.

It’s an oppressive cycle of gaining insight of our flow with nature and then doubting this energetic guidance therefore creating emotional blocks. Most obstacles blinding us is an oppressed childhood emotion that can not be released from our bodies.

This stored emotional energy challenges the universe in providing a solution to our goals that are far greater than anything imaginable. In order to surrender ourselves we must remember our instinctual understanding of the physical world before education transformed our perspective on life.

I observed my parents ritual of going to the bank to obtain money before shopping as a child. “This must be our source of money,” I would logically tell myself. “There also must not be any limit”, since at the age of four I had no concept of bank deposits. I only witnessed cash withdrawals used to purchase what was needed or wanted by my mother for the day.

When I would see a new action figure I wanted from an isle in our local store, my four year old self would obsess for days. I would demand, “Mom, I want this toy”, while we walked through the store. She would ignore me at first, resulting in me grabbing the toy off the shelf and throwing it in our shopping cart.

“We don’t have the money for this,” she would explain taking the toy and placing it on a nearby shelf. Confused, I picked the toy right back again and put it in our cart. “Just go to the bank and get money,” I suggested as an obvious solution. The bank had been our source of unlimited abundance and there is no limit to what you can withdraw. I would like my new toy!

“There’s not enough in the bank for this toy,” she would answer placing my dream up on a shelf I could not reach. This lesson went against an understanding of resources resulting in anger, frustration, and disappointment coalescing into a tantrum in aisle 17 and an emotional block towards having what I want.

We are taught to block the natural flow of abundance opening us to situations that reinforce a belief around scarcity. This is compounded into a deeper perception that our survival is grounded inside competition.

Our culture mirrors this understanding with a reward system for those few who have access to abundance, and those who must go without due to limitations from this source. A learned imbalance shuts our bodies off, locking our physical reality into a routine of mindless action of work based rewards. It is only by being able to access our inherent understanding of this flow that we are able to walk a true path of abundance flowing from a universal source, just as we did in the womb.

Our limitation of seeing money as our source of abundance is flawed by the focus that this belief brings into our life. The paycheck to paycheck lifestyle becomes a perpetual chain of our own enslavement. We begin to want what we perceive is unattainable due to a belief of scarcity, and therefore act within our lives to further tie us down to such limitations.

I had resolved myself to never gaining advancement in Brazilian Jiu Jitsu while working 10 to 12 hour shifts as a delivery driver. The physical job, I told myself, made me exhausted and I never would get off in time to attend a scheduled class. I did this for about a year feeling resentful of my employment and angry at my work schedule.

It was’t until I was able to shift my attention and let go of my stored anger towards circumstances I created. “I will no longer live in resentment towards my situation. I give to (God, Divine, Universe, etc) all guidance towards the best outcome for me in obtaining further instruction in the martial arts”, I would say every time I felt anger channel from frustration to obtain my goal. I surrendered myself to a universal source of abundance with unforeseen outcomes that began to present themselves along the way.

In following one of my old training partners from the days back at the academy I noticed a post on social media. He was going to begin offering courses at 6 am in order to allow for a morning class.

I had two choices, either I would be too tired from training for work and ignore this scheduling miracle or dive into the river of abundance and see where it led. Another six months of working through my belief in scarcity before I stepped into my friends training academy.

Once I began training again even more fears where dissolved. I had more energy throughout the day and after a few months skills I thought were lost began to come back to me as I progressed in fitness and knowledge until I gained the rank I had originally desired!

As children we fixate on what we want in the moment. This later translates into focusing our energy upon a specific goal we wish to obtain. My career in social services had began to wear me out mentally, and I turned my attention to wanting a change. I was not worried about scarcity, because I was employed and would work until my new goal was accomplished. Then over the radio I heard an advertisement seeking agency owners, within my local area. I felt inside that this was the change I sought.

All my focus went into obtaining this goal through interviews, a few month of classes, and testing. I had an opportunity to make more money than I ever made in social services, and also could earn incentives with trips to Montreal and Hawaii! I took my knowledge and skills from social services to offer customers what I felt would be a better experience than any other agency they had encountered. I was offering my services as a positive change and truly believed my product would benefit my newly acquired customers.

My agency grew, and customers sought me out for assistance. I joined networking groups and talked not as a salesman but as someone who genuinely cared about how my services could fully cover their personal needs. I was allowing the universal source of abundance to guide my path without trying to control how this was happening. I began to believe complaints from other agents about obtaining new customers and when they questioned me on how I was gaining such positive production. I didn’t know what to tell them. I just didn’t know it was suppose to be difficult.

The doubt around my future agency worked its way into everything, changing how I viewed my business and I began to feel pressure. I had started questioning my abundance around customers and the source of where I obtained new leads. Management set up tracking programs and spoke of spheres of influence all in an attempt to control where I would ultimately obtain growth for my agency.

I began to run my business as other agents in my district. In an all out competition of scarcity trying to meet overinflated deadlines and unrealistic quotas. My customers morphed into a source of income rather than as individuals who sought me out as a financial and property advisor. The universal source of unlimited potential now became defined as how many customers and products were obtained through my agency.

This is when I became depressed and blocked the flow. The easy quotas became struggles and stress around agency’s growth contributed to less leisure time. I felt my energy hardened to the ease of growing my business and falling sales numbers took hold of my body, leading to a loss of my once prosperous future.

What I wish I would’ve known then is that, the best place to begin this journey back to our natural flow of abundance is within the self through emotional attunement.

Only you are aware of how a particular situation feels within your body. It is within you that emotion of dread bubbles up inside your lower intestine, and then grips your heart as you experience being buried deep in scarcity. This is where the work of taking steps towards a path of surrendering to the abundant flow of energy is cultivated.

When you walk off your personal clearcut trail constructed from cultural scarcity out of buried emotion that the lies fall away. We start to allow our subconscious the freedom to move out of doubt and relinquish control to the Universe.

We have become locked into striving for a payout, rather than living within an experience of abundance. This blocks our universal flow allowing for only a physical source of reward such as a paycheck. Filtering out unforeseeable outcomes offered through surrendering to a Universal path.

The river of abundance seeks a course of least resistance and diverts itself around blockages. Holding onto our emotions rooted in scarcity you shut yourself off from a natural flow, becoming a rock in a river which energy flows around. Only receiving a few splashes upon a wet stone.

An exercise to offer up control allowing the Universal source of abundance to flow can be simple. I just use a box designated as my physical representation for a problem, worry, or situation that I can identify as coming from scarcity.

In furthering my skills in the martial arts I viewed time and physical exhaustion as rooted in employment. When I no longer held emotional resentment around the hours I work and offered the solution as the best outcome for me to the Universe in the box I started the physical transference of control.

Now when I would become emotional around work and time I would send this emotion to the box that is holding my block. This then opens my body to receive the flow of energy as presented from the Universe through me rather than around me.

In the box I may add other emotions around the situation presented before me. I had added fear and doubt about being physically tired when done with the morning class. In placing these mental blocks into the box I could swim in the unforeseen outcome towards a solution that is best suited for me.

In the beginning my need to reaffirm that I am no longer in control of a desired outcome or solution to a problem has been difficult, but with each reinforceable thought that the best possible outcome would be presented in the right moment became a comforting mantra. I could feel the emotions embedded in my body lift around the situation. Then the moment will appear at the right time with your best possible outcome for your situation.

Another article written by Christopher Madsen