Introducing — The Mess With A Message
Neha Sonney is the author of the #1 bestselling book Wired For Self-Love: 11 Strategies To Free Yourself From Your Past, Embrace Your True Identity & Build Unshakeable Confidence.
Hello and Namaste to all the writers at Illumination. Thank you Dr Mehmet Yildiz for the invitation to write my bio and introduce myself.
I’m a chai-sipping dream catcher-making channel for endless ideas per day, more than a person can handle in one life time. I’m looking to clone myself. Anyone willing to volunteer here? :)
I’m Neha. I’m a happy person who loves seeing others happy and I’m happy for you.
That wasn’t always the case. In fact, if I told you I was bitter, angry upset, negative and critical, you wouldn’t believe me. But that’s was me in a past life.
Your eyes are very easy to trick. I wish I had a before “fat” and after “fit” picture for you to see the difference. But sadly I was never fat either. Lol. Sorry, I got no photos for you.
My fitness was not a problem. On the outside, I looked exactly as I do now.
But I was a sad human. And all I brought in my life was sadness. I was sad because I wasn’t where I wanted to be in life — work, relationships, friendships. Nothing worked for me.
You know why? Because emotionally, I was in a lot of pain for which I didn’t want to take responsibility. So I was unconsciously taking the easy route.
The Blame Train…
that took me nowhere. It kept going in circles. I was stuck in the same situation…
For a decade! 10 years!. That’s 3650 days! 87,600 hours.
What a waste of precious time, right? But that was not enough to shake me out of my slumber.
What shook me was catching myself messing up a brand new life. And I remember I had promised myself I wouldn’t do that. I promised myself I’d be a different mom. A moment in the summer of 2008 changed the trajectory of my life. I had to change from an abusive mother to a kind, loving and caring one. I didn’t know how I was going to do that. I don’t give myself a plan B — It’s do or die. I was determined.
That day I got off the blame train. I got into the driver’s seat of my life. I drove through the rockiest of life’s paths and endless dark tunnels for 13 years. I reparented myself, resolved to meditate and be a better mother.
You know what? Even though there was no one by my side, I felt my presence as my quiet strength, whispering to me “You can do this. You got this. I believe in you!”
That’s was the fuel in my life to keep pushing through when it got lonely.
I’m here to tell you this. If you’re reading these words, take this as a message from your higher self.
You have it in you to choose your happiness. You can decide what happiness and success mean to you. The key is to make that decision everyday. Everyday in your life is a commitment to show up to a better you that awaits you.
Your commitment to yourself is the biggest promise you can make!
That’s how I make promises. When you promise others, and you break your promise, it hurts them.
When you promise yourself and you don’t keep that promise, you hurt yourself. No one want to hurt themselves.
Keeping your promise to yourself is going to hold you, and only you, accountable for the results in your life.
You decide everyday.
What am I doing on Illumination (and Medium, and in Life)?
Dropping truth-bombs from my insightful pen that can cause to blow the mind.
Why do I love doing this?
Because during the explosion, which I like to call a brain-freeze moment, magic happens. Insights drop like pennies from an open sky. That moment changes you forever…(just like that moment in the summer of 2008)
I live for these moments. I capture them in my notepad so I can write stories that touch your heart, make you smile, inspire you or somehow leave you a better human than you were at the beginning of this page.
Sometimes they become poems. I must confess I’m a little obsessed with rhyming words in poems. I seem to enjoy them more. Here’s one I wrote titled Transformation.
I’ve been writing blogs since January 2016, and I haven’t looked back since. I write a column titled Matters Of The Heart for a local magazine that caters to the African diaspora settled in Hong Kong. Besides that, I serve clients looking to find a relationship or improve the one with themselves but feel lost as to where they can begin their self-love journey.
Through writing and speaking, I aspire to reach a wider audience being an advocate for self-love.