Psychology | Brain | Cognition
Inside My Brain
spinning gears and many fears
My brain is churning with ideas. Yet each time I sit at my computer to put them into a document, that same brain goes like this:
Write about politics! [and my gears go — which part[s] of it? they can’t decide so they keep spinning]
Write about aging — it’s your “thing!” [and my fears go — but no one is reading that now — why bother]
Write about pets! [and my fears and gears go crazy as all I can do is remember the ones who have died — and I get sad]
Write about something fun/funny! [and the gears stop and tell me that nothing seems funny right now]
Write about a topic that “makes money!” [and the gears go — why now — that’s never been your raison d’etre]
Write about life in a floating home! [and the gears go slowly— not now — not interested — maybe later]
Write about something “psychology!’ [and my fears go — that feels too depressing because you’ll relate it to politics]
Write about something “law!” [and my brain goes — oh no — that’s too much like politics and psychology right now — too much and too depressing]
So we sit at the computer, my brain and I, along with the gears and fears, and decide to write about why we can not write today.
I also wrote this about my brain ….
