I’m A Hotwife But My Husband Is Definitely Not a Cuck
Why would I want to humiliate someone who has my interests at heart?
Together my husband and I are married. Together we are also swingers. But last year things shifted a little.
One night when I’d indulged in one too many glasses of Pinot Noir, I got up the courage to tell my husband I couldn’t be monogamous. I wasn’t born with the monogamy gene.
Even after actively swinging as a couple for nearly a decade, I’d never told him this fact about me. I’m not even sure I recognized it until that very moment.
Ever the stoic, my rock didn’t flinch or even comment. I suspect he knew this fact about me long before I did.
The next evening, after some wine, he brought the subject of non-monogamy up again. This time bringing up the subject of ‘hotwives’. Because I wasn’t the one who vetted couples and singles on Kasidie, Adult Friend Finder, and other swinger websites, I wasn’t familiar with the term.
A married woman who is allowed and/or encouraged by her husband to pursue sexual relationships with other individuals. Often, these relationships are in pursuit of fulfilling the husband’s/couple’s fantasies.
Curiosity piqued, I had to learn more. I started reading more about hotwives and considering the possibility I could operate as one.
In my mind, I saw a hotwife as a strong, successful, and sexually confident woman. She was a Mae West, Joan Collins, and Sophia Loren all wrapped up in a single goddess package. A tall order and one I wasn’t sure I could fill.
But the more I dug around, the more I realized there was a humiliation side to many hotwife definitions that I didn’t like. It brought back memories of reading about the Wife of Bath in Chaucer’s Canterbury Tales in high school English Literature class. Perhaps the original hotwife, I disliked the way she cuckolded her many husbands into submission and subservience.
This is not the hotwife I want to be.
Thankfully, my husband wasn’t looking to be cuckolded. I hate this term but maybe that’s because it’s just not my kink. To each his own.
To me, a hotwife is a woman who enjoys the company of men. It doesn’t always include sex. In the same way, I don’t like my eggs served the same way every day, variety is important to me. It makes me feel alive.
When he gave me permission to operate as a hotwife, I told him it was only fair that he was able to do the same. To date, he’s never acted on this permission but I’m sure there will come a day.
I wanted to use the hotwife experience to become the woman that my husband could see was trapped inside. Yes, I know I am smart, funny, beautiful, sexy but I’m not confident.
With my husband’s encouragement and support, I am using my hotwife experiences to empower myself.
After my hotwife adventures, I come home to the man I love for some hot sex. What he gets off on is thrusting his big cock into my pussy and showing it who’s boss.
Having someone in my corner as I explored my sexuality with other men, is the mark of a real man. His desire to see me fulfill my sexual fantasies and rebuild my sense of self was the greatest gift he could ever give me.
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