How (I Think) I Reunited With My Twin Flame

After a period of separation, the rift began to heal

The twin flame journey is the wildest ride of my life. It’s taught me so much about myself. I’ve held back writing about it recently because, for one reason, my twin flame doesn’t know about any of this yet and he might freak out if he reads this, and for another reason, I didn’t want to get ahead of myself. But I know how it is for those searching desperately for answers. I know the pain of twin flame separation. I know what it feels like to google “twin flames” to find any kind of consolation to make sense of the insanity.

So, whoever you are reading this: I am going to give you some answers. I’ll tell you what I’ve learned.

As always, the solutions to your problems lie within yourself. Twin flame separation is excruciating pain for the “chaser”, and the only way to soothe this pain is to embrace self-love. This story isn’t about making your twin flame do something. It’s not about figuring out how to change the behavior of someone else. That’s manipulative.

This story isn’t about your twin at all. The wild and wacky twin flame journey is all about the evolution within you.

It’s really hilarious if you think about it. Here you are — you’ve met someone who completes you and makes you feel less alone in the universe. Someone so much like you, with whom you can totally be yourself, and who you adore. Someone who elevates your consciousness, even. And yet, you aren’t going to be with them until you’ve worked out your own issues all by yourself.

The universe is a hilarious and ironic place.

I’ll be honest, humor has kept me sane through this. You have to just see it all as an adventure. Your incarnation in this life is merely a role in a grand play. You’re experiencing the most amazing of miracles accompanied by the strangest of pain, and it’s all for a reason: to help your soul grow.

What follows is an account of the things I did and the events leading up to my twin flame reuniting with me after a period of separation. I hope that it offers you the solace that you are seeking.

I Contemplated My Existence….A Lot

I started my separation period by doing some really insane shadow work. And that was only the beginning. Since then, I’ve looked closely at all the trauma I still carry with me and all the baggage I just need to let go of. I thought about who and what I am. I thought about reality.

What is real?

I basically trashed all the assumptions from my mind that I possibly could and started again.

I deconstructed my existence and allowed myself to learn what I’m doing here on planet Earth from the beginning again. I doubted everything. I doubted whether twin flames are real. I doubted my purpose here. I doubted everything people told me and sometimes doubted my own inner voice.

Pro tip: doubting your inner voice is never a good idea because intuition is your internal compass for life. Don’t do it.

I had messages, signs, and synchronicities to guide me along the way. I got assurances in the form of strange coincidences and repeated numbers. It was absurd at times. I really had to stop and wonder if anything was as it seems. At one point I was seeing so many repeated numbers that I wondered whether numbers are all the same. I questioned everything.

I have lost my mind several times, and that’s okay. It’s part of the process. Because “losing your mind” in society’s terms means letting go of assumptions about reality. In order to liberate your soul and live your truth, you simply must let go of sanity for a little while.

Don’t worry, you’ll get it back. Eventually.

This was all an essential part of my solitary journey to twin flame union because I realized that separation is an illusion. There is no separation and never was.

I Stopped Looking for Love and Acceptance from Others

In the time of separation, I tried moving on. I had no idea when I would ever hear from my twin again. People told me to let it go and get on with my life, including a psychic I visited.

I started trying to date other men. I went out on a few dates. They were basically nice (well, some weren’t) but there was no deep connection. No spark. I yearned for that feeling of “coming home” that I had with him. And I would come home from these dates and just cry.

At one point, I took a break. I decided that my job isn’t to try to find someone to love me. Or someone to love.

I needed to love myself.

Taking time to enjoy life, I went hiking, took myself out to trendy coffee shops, and read spiritual books. I meditated a ton. I accepted the love within myself. I prayed and had conversations with the sky. The universe and I got closer.

I began to see the world as an extension of me. I am one with the world. Separation is an illusion. I finally surrendered to the oneness of my existence, and that any happy ending and any love I could find in this world could originate within me.

Everything happens for a reason. I am fully supported by the universe that created me and all the other souls here. Nothing is out of place. I have everything I need right now.

I had to learn this in order to be healed and mentally ready for oneness with him or any other person.

I Majorly Healed My Trauma

Previous relationships and childhood experiences were haunting me. The further time took me into my period of separation, the more of my past was brought front and center so that I had to face it. I took these opportunities to heal.

Sometimes, the healing involved lying in bed crying for almost a whole day. Sometimes, it required me to meditate and focus on purging myself from the past. Journaling played a huge part. Lots of self-reflection was constantly involved.

I won’t lie. It was exhausting.

I noticed that at the point when I had truly embraced my healing — and possibly, I had healed a whole lot already — is when my twin re-entered the picture.

I Decided to Just Wait and Surrender to Blind Faith

One day, I finally had enough of trying to “move on”, as other people had advised me to do. I decided to stop putting myself through this. Dating was time-consuming and honestly, a waste of time. Why? Because I was looking for him. And I wasn’t going to find him.

One day I decided to just stop all the nonsense and just wait for him. I knew there was no one I could be with happily. So, I was happy to be alone waiting. Trying to fill my life with replacements of what I had with him was never going to work for me.

I made the choice to trust the universe. I surrendered to the belief that he would be back eventually. I loved being “alone” — separation from him is an illusion, anyway.

I even sent him a message that day about my healing journey. It wasn't a message asking him to return, nor was it a message accusing him of anything. It was a declaration of my journey.

Literally hours later, he came back into my life.

This is such a personal thing to write for the world to see, but I just know that someone out there will find such comfort in this. You can do it, too.

I Really Hope This Helps

Honestly, random internet articles and quora answers helped me, so I am just trying to return the favor by giving my wisdom about twin flames back to the internet. There’s no central hub of information about this topic. It isn’t mainstream knowledge. You can’t ask a therapist about this stuff. There are no cable channel documentaries about it.

As spiritually awake people who are slowly losing our minds, we must walk this path alone, and it’s really hard sometimes. But it feels so good to hear about others who have been through the same things.

It’s very difficult to find any stories about twin flame union after separation anywhere. Why is that? I am not sure. This is why I write this. I really hope it gives you some of the answers you’ve been seeking.

Keep on your healing journey. Keep working on your self-love. See that this is a journey of your soul’s evolution, your spiritual connections, and your growth into a better person. Embrace that. It’ll all fall into place eventually.

And remember, separation is an illusion.

Hi, I’m Emily. I write about consciousness, philosophy, and deep considerations of existence. For more about me, have a look at my website.

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