Feelings Of Hatred
Working with painful feelings
Hatred, just like any other painful feelings, confronts our inability to work with pain. It exposes that we are at the mercy of the dumb logic of the mechanical mind.
When I feel hatred I can’t stop feeling its pain, but the mechanical mind tries to stop it by its dumb logic of resisting or moving in the opposite direction. It cannot do non-movement but only try to mimic a state of non-movement (or dropping) by further movement; even the idea of accepting or sitting with pain is further movement(becomes mechanical).
Non-movement cannot be initiated by the thinking mind. Because any initiation from the thinking mind with regards to this will be nothing but another movement of conflict or resistance within. One must be fed up with expecting the pure mechanical thinking mind to do the work for them and instead begin to appreciate awareness. Only our moment-to-moment awareness of our own conditioned mechanical nature can bring any change in this endless movement of conflict, not further mental tricks.
The only thing that is required is to simply see our conditioned reaction to painful feelings, that is, to simply see how we block awareness of pain rather than trying to heroically face pain or any such nonsense (which is nothing but holding on to blindness).
Luckily awareness or seeing of the movements of the mechanical mind is not in my hands; it’s not in the thinking mind’s control — which makes it impossible to be spoiled by mental cleverness and aggression once we begin to appreciate it, even though the thinking mind tries to convince that seeing is done by thoughts (which is absurd). Because it sees my conditioned reactions as it is, be it cleverness or self-violence or anything at all.
We cannot remain blind and expect to see, at least not for a long time, until one can’t escape the burden of guilt associated with constant lying that mechanical mind can save them and their fellow beings from slavery to the very mechanical mind.
Seeing and understanding this dumb logic of the mechanical mind repeatedly without succumbing to the comfort of mechanical suffering as to our current capacity might be the key. If not, our only option becomes to block the awareness of pain as we will always remain scared of painful feelings.
Originally published at http://doyourwork680125939.wordpress.com on June 26, 2021.
