Do We All Have A Feeling Of What Life Is Supposed To “Be” Like?
I’ve recently been exploring what I thought life was supposed to be like. My thoughts keep finding themselves in a state of wondering… what I expected my time here to be like.
What I thought it was going to feel like.
How the external world I live in and the internal energy swirling inside of me co-exist?
Do we spend more time wondering about what we thought life was supposed to be like rather than actually being in life?
Do we spend more time wadding in our past or sprinting towards our future that we forget to just be? Do you sometimes forget to just be you? Be in your moment. Be with your breath. Be with yourself and all that’s around you.
What did you think your life was going to be like?
Is life supposed to be like anything?
We all know there’s something magnificent about life and our time spent living it. An intangible source of brilliance, we find ourselves at a loss for words when trying to describe it.
Despite the pain, despite the trauma and tears, we know the beauty because it’s woven into our hearts.
When it’s ignited, we’re reminded of the point. Why we endure the pain. Why we choose growth. Why we always crave transformation.
There’s so much untouched beauty, despite how many minutes of life we’ve already lived. We know some of this beauty was meant solely for us to discover because we have a 1 in 400 trillion chance of occupying this moment. And yet, here we are.
I have recently had this reoccurring thought of, “This wasn’t what I thought life was going to be…”
In some ways, that’s so much better. In some ways, that’s painful. In some ways, it’s exhilarating. In some ways, I’m so glad… life always gives you what’s meant for you.
Through life not presenting itself as what I thought it was going to be, I discovered what else was there.
I found out who I was and showed up in this world as myself. I forced myself to look in the mirror. Not one made of glass, but one that’s reflected in the mountains. I saw me. And I knew it was me from the chills up my spine and the bumps that covered my arms.
It whispered to me why I’m here. Occupying this moment and space in time.
I’m here to create. I’m here to give love. I’m here to have my fingers dance over my keyboard. In equal parts vain and frustration and to flow with power. I am choosing to not self-edit. I am choosing to be. I am choosing to ask my inner self what is there and what it needs. And that sometimes means abandoning what was there before. To let in what’s coming next.
I say a hollow goodbye to what I thought life was going to be, all that I never had time to know, and all that I still don’t understand. Through my goodbye, I welcome in all that’s meant for me to discover. I welcome in all that life is, and all that it will be moving forward.
Life doesn’t always happen in the big moments, but sometimes in the smallest of whispers.
I want to be in life. I want to be me in this world. And. that’s something I’ll always strive for. It will act as my compass navigating me through the next part of my journey.
I wonder when it will feel like “enough”. But what’s silly….. it already is. It always will be.
How you inhabit this world will always leave the oceans and skies overflowing with enough. Enough of who you are, not who you thought you were meant to be.
Shake the walls with your roar. Rustle the grass with your whisper.
You are being in the exact way you were meant to. Always and in every moment.
Learn to be. Love to be. Exist to be. This life is yours to be in.
Continue searching for the untouched beauty that was meant solely for you. Look for your reflection not in your mirror, but in the mountains. Life may not have been what you thought it was going to be, but it will always give you exactly what was meant for you.
I’m reminded of who I am, not what I do. It’s just rewarding to be all that you were designed to be.
— Justin Bieber
Maddie is a certified coach, writer, and voice-over artist. Self-declared boxed wine aficionado.