TRANSGENDER
Day 8: Double the T, Half the Hunger?
My journey on T
T is doing weird things and I love it
It’s only day one of two pumps per day of my testogel (up from one per day from the past week) and I didn’t expect to notice anything, but my lack of hunger is, very noticeable!
Seriously, from everything I’ve been told, T is supposed to make me hungry like a teenage boy, because second puberty! I know, I know, early days… wait for it. But right now, I’m anything but hungry. In fact, when I needed to eat earlier because I need to take other meds, instead of grabbing the leftover pizza in the fridge (it was my ‘real’ birthday yesterday so my housemate and I did pizza and a movie), I quickly cooked up some chicken breast and threw it in with some greens. The idea of pizza was just… nope. Not only was I not hungry, I was absolutely not hungry for pizza.
That was when an interesting observation hit me — I have not been craving sugar or chocolate since I started T. Well, barely. And the longer I’ve been on T, the less I’ve been craving. Today’s boost in T brought with it a huge plummet in cravings. In fact, right now, I’m thinking about chocolate and it’s giving me the solid feeling of MEH! This is crazy! Crazy good, but crazy. Even searching for the image to include with this article was weird. Normally, seeing pictures would set off cravings but this time — nothing!
Have I been so emotionally empty and therefore emotionally eating my whole damn life that I just never knew what it felt like to not be hungry? I mean, this is the thought pounding in my head right now. That’s going to be an interesting one to bring up with my gender therapist at our next session, that’s for sure.